Today marks 5 years clean and sober.
I Wanted to share a few lyrics from my dear friend
@louisahhh As much as I’d like to say something today I’d prefer to celebrate her words that gave me hope when I had none in hopes that they can reach someone who is feeling how I was. Her words, love and kindness are a huge part of the reason I’m even here today and I’m forever grateful for that.
To everyone else who helped me along the way, you know who you are and I love you more than words can ever describe. If you’re trying to get clean don’t do it alone. There is so much support out there. Reach out if you need 🖤
“i’m ready to shine the armor of my own blood
not sacrifice, it’s not sacrifice
the dialogue of the martyr makes me sick; and now, now
i’ve caught a current, now. i’ll try to tell the truth
sometimes, it tastes like metal, sometimes
it’s grotesque. it’s grotesque
the gutting is necessary, though. flip-flop, gasping open, like a fish
allowing the self-wrestling; allowing everything, drawn and quartered like a moth to the flame, and being fully
diversion, a distraction, a siren, a false god, a catalyst, a good vein
it wants the sick, the saint, the glutton, the thief; forgive me, the cut i make, i must, i’ll try to be gentle as we dance through”
