“Colony,” 2026 ✨
Graphite, white charcoal, mars black lumograph, cosmetics on toned paper
This piece was a result of the
@miles_art sketchbook retreat I recently attended at
@chapelofsacredmirrors 🐜
Just a few days before I left for the retreat, I unfortunately had to deal with a case of sexual harassment—though a minor case, it completely enveloped my brain for the entire trip.
I suppose the timing couldn’t have been better, as I had time and space away from home to process my frustration. While this particular incident was very minor, it drummed up a lot of memories and painful experiences of my own, and ones I have heard from others—A grave reality is that every single person who has been or is a woman, girl, femme, or AFAB, has multiple stories of various harassment because it is so common for us to experience, and that really pisses me off, that really burns me up inside—it makes my skin crawl thinking about the nasty shit that has been said to me over the years, it has made me weep; that feeling of eyes looking over you, hands touching you, grabbing, groping, filthy words said, perpetrators of violence acting in groups, preying on you, preying on me, preying on us, burrowing inside and building a nest, over and over and over again.
When we began the sketching process, the first thing I drew was an ant. Miles encouraged me to push the concept until I got it to a place to create a final piece. This drawing feels like a small study for a larger, more detailed work in the future. I didn’t worry myself with being completely anatomically accurate like my normal drawings, I just wanted to loosen up and enjoy the process (the drawing process at least, not necessarily the subject matter).
Thank you for a healing experience, CoSM & Miles 💖
#drawing #ants #surrealart #selfportraitartist #darkart