Zohra Zaka

Phase 1 complete! Here are some ungraded stills. We have a movie! Our Giant plays the violin Our Lucy has a French accent and plays the accordion Our Laura has the voice of an angel Our Agent Cooper…well..he’s pretty spot on Our Man From Another Place sings! Our Major Briggs sports long locks and even deeper thoughts We added some aliens, sprinkled in a therapist, and added a Hell of a lot of Parmesan cheese But don’t fret, we still have more tricks up our sleeves to come Do stay tuned ……. Big big love to the whole team, cast & crew who were sometimes playing both cast and crew! I’m so grateful for YOU!! Genuine love can create anything ❤️❤️❤️

Maktabi These days I find myself Greeting you out loud Hi mom Soft, like your voice Hi mom The way you put your arm around my shoulder The way your smile warmed my heart I miss our walks in nature I miss your natural curiosity That immediately turned into hunger So quite was your genius, unassuming By the next day You knew everything there was to know All written in your little notebooks For a while, a word you said to me at the hospital Kept echoing in my ears Maktabi Loosely translated as rule follower in this context “Bachem, chiqa maktabi asti.” “My child, what rule follower you are.” Your words struck me that day And echoed in me for a long time I’d thought that if we did all the things Exactly how they’d asked All the blood and all treatments Doctors and nurses and specialists 3am, 5am, 7am, 11am, 1pm, 3pm, 5pm, 7pm, 9pm, 11pm, 1am All the things, then logic would have it That you’d be fine Your sleep was stolen from you Lights on right as your beautiful face went to rest So many needles These veins in my arms are traumatized to this day By those days and nights My arms bruise for two weeks now When I get blood drawn Phantoms or emotional contagion? But you were right mom You knew then Even before the final doctors visit When you held my head upon on your lap And you said out loud “You doctors made my sweet girl cry” So now I break all the rules And then I turn my head towards you An empty space in the eyes of others But to me, it’s all the places that you’d be And I crack a joke or two Laugh to myself Not so Makatbi anymore am I mom?

Mato And The Infinites @matinperdue

I have so much love for the entire cast and crew that came together for Bye Bob. I’m so grateful for each and every single one of you. I can’t begin to count how many hats each one of you wore- I am in awe. And I’m so thankful for everyone who has donated to our film’s funding so far through our crowdfunding and for those who donated gear! Most might believe that it’s rare nowadays for people to give of their time, their talents, from their pockets towards a project that has no financial backing, but what Bye Bob has is a hell of a lot of heart. We managed to build a set in 2 days and film for 2 more to get us started. Thank you from the whole of my heart to everyone who has supported us so far and everyone who will in the coming days as we work towards filming the rest of this beautiful film. With love, Z. @hatonstick @moemoneymayhem @johnmoros @wanderingwerb @ash.zunker @matinperdue @kade_life @makeupbynalani @tessclarkk @rowanmagee @emvln1 @rudyrockstar @phoebehelander @jkangbrown @travellingvirgochick @femme_splaining @eleonoreweill @imbehindacamera @gipsova @cave76productions @sen0333 @arri_rental @adoramarentalco @meagantheepisces

It is happening (again)! What began as an inside joke is becoming an actual film. Please see the link in my bio to help make Bye Bob! possible. The brilliant Zohra Zaka is making a funny, bizarre, Lynchian film about my process through cancer treatment, starring yours truly in three different roles. Gratitude to everyone in the cast and crew and to everyone who has already donated. More to come soon! @zzaka @femme_splaining @eleonoreweill @phoebehelander @jkangbrown @emvln1 @rudyrockstar @rowanmagee @tessclarkk @romainejnyc @jmmillie3 @moemoneymayhem @gipsova @imbehindacamera @matinperdue @johnmoros @wanderingwerb

Diving into the blue Music: Bodies of Water - Cosmo Sheldrake

Dark Angel. A new re-imagined character in Bye Bob. Gateway to the shadow world. Music: Johnny and Mary by Todd Terje featuring Bryan Ferry

Dreamers Did you know there used to be incubation dream temples in ancient Egypt? Sleeping and dreaming were considered not only sacred, but it was believed that sleeping in a Dream Temple was therapeutic and your dreams would hold messages. Music: Devotchka - Dearly Departed Lauren Hill - Tell Him Bebel Gilberto - Tanto Tempo Bjork - Moon

I’ve been feeling today for a few days now. I knew it was coming. Dreams about mom and memories of our many lives and the many years that we’ve grown together. Today is also my little and not so little brother’s birthday. Hard to believe he has 3 sweet boys of his own now. There’s this feeling that doesn’t have a name that sits with me today. It has nostalgia and it has restlessness and some breathlessness. Something told me to find this video that I made for my family a year and a half ago and something tells me to go to the ocean and dip my hands and feet in her. And so I’ll listen and walk towards the sun and the waves, close my eyes and sit in my memories.

Morning tea travels to Japan for the cherry bloom

The sun listening to Sonic Youth.

The hauntingly beautiful songs of humpback whales during a new moon. Spring Tides from this morning. ***First song here is the first known whale song recording by scientists aboard the Atlantis cruise 154 near Bermuda in 1949. ***