RAW: an exploration of grief
That time of year again where I do a post to remember my brother on his D-Day. This time feels different though. I think I’m finally ready to share this little personal film from a couple of years ago, just after my mum joined him in Bully Heaven, also taken far too soon.
This was shot during a Mia Wray music promo and this moment just happened, a simple outtake as the sun broke through the trees. Captured in one take by DP
@joedouglasdop and
@steadijayy with me frantically collecting armfuls of leaves and some accidental, god-like cinematic magic.
I’m not religious, and I’m certainly not an angel. But when Grant took his own life, I started looking at the world differently to try and make sense of it all. In this moment, with the light piercing through the trees, I felt them both there, If you look closely maybe you can too.
I couldn’t edit, grade or even remove the timecode as It felt wrong touching it. This is the RAW moment exactly as it happened.
Being left behind by suicide is its own kind of grief. It never fully leaves you and sneaks back up when you least expect it. As a spiritual buddha Bull in training… this is for anyone feeling this kind of pain right now: give it time as it won't always feel like this, I promise...
If you have the patience, watch it through. It’s not really a quick scroll social post.
Love to everyone who helped make this possible. You know who you are x
Director: Tiny Bullet
@teebully
Exec Producer: Philippa Thomas
@fliptjanethomas
Producer: Trent Simpson
PA: Anna Horlick
@yoloanna
1st AD: Josie Jacobs
DOP: Joe Douglas
@joedouglasdop
Choreographer: Lucie Pankhurst
@luciepankhurst
Stedicam Op: Jay Gomez
@steadijayy
Hair & Make Up Artist: Freddie Stopler
@freddie_stopler
Stylist: Jenny Meister
@jennymeisterstyling
Dancer : Anna Maria de Freitas
Label: Ivy League Records
Label: Mushroom Group
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