Grief is sacred.
Grief is not something to get over.
Not something we make a comeback from.
But we can be sure that at some point in our life grief will come.
We know for certain that no one lives forever. With life comes death. With life comes so many kinds of loss. Tangible and intangible. I know I am not alone because the more I speak about grief the more that it's shared with me.
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Trust the process is so true....
Two years of consistent skating has gotten me from someone who could only skate forward and stop as a child, to an adult who can dance and move in multiple directions on her skates.
I realize despite having previous progress reels that there are a lot of new people here lately (since my grief skate post struck a chord), so let me reintroduce myself
Hi my name is Lauren or Funshine if you call me by my skate name. A little over two years ago I discovered my first adult night of skating and realized there was an entire culture of skating I didn't know about, I fell in love that very first night. I went again in March. Then I bought my own skates, and went again in April. I found skating brought me two things, immense joy, and relief from my grief of losing someone very close to me, my cousin Krystal.
At the beginning of May 2024 I started taking skating lessons, and decided to hold myself accountable that I would do 365 days of skating in a row, and I decided to record my progress everyday.( New fact for those of you who have been around awhile, at first recording and watching back video was so uncomfortable for me that I often only recorded my feet.)
Over the remainder of 2024 I also lost my grandmother and then my grief counselor of five years passed away, I really am grateful that I had found skating and was able to recenter myself each day that year. In time I began trying to learn what people were doing, often by recording them, and then watching the video at home and trying things from Instagram. I began making friends, and sending them recordings and posting reels to remember not just my progress, but the memories I was making.
My account I hope will inspire others to learn to skate, and highlight the joy the art of skating brings to my life, but mainly I just post things here so I don't forget, the memories, the people, the progress myself.
If you are new here thanks for coming and if you have been here a long time thanks for being here 💜 Funshine
Thanks for the inspiration of the reel
@rollerscrapes@skatewiththemz
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For me every single moment, every single day, is something special to remember.
I believe that some of us feel this in our bones, especially the ones who have grieved. We want to be able to remember the memories, the people that we love, the friends who mean so much, and so we take photos, we take video to remember. 💜 Here are some of many skate family members over the last two years.
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You’re going to realize it one day — that happiness was never about your job, or your degree, or being in a relationship. Happiness was never about following in the footsteps of all of those who came before you, it was never about being like the others. One day, you’re going to see it — that happiness was always about the discovery, the hope, the listening to your heart and following it wherever it chose to go. Happiness was always about being kinder to yourself, it was always about embracing the person you were becoming. One day, you will understand. That happiness was always about learning how to live with yourself, that happiness was never in the hands of other people. It was always about you. It was always about you."
Bianca Sparacino
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This is part of grief for me.... Every crow a hello from my grandfather. Every feather in my path is a hello from my grandmother. Every time I hear the song, "Here comes the sun" or find money, a hello from my father. Numbers a hello from the other side.
I don't know how but for me the synchronous harmony and small joys like repeating numbers feel like they help me to know they are still with me. The more I notice them. The more I ask for them it seems because I see them so much.
Do you see signs from your loved ones?
#rollingthroughgrief #griefislove #signsfromtheuniverse
Grief is not something most people understand, until you do.
Just another day of rolling through grief.
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Honestly this is really the reason I started skating to have some relief from my grief. To come up for air. Skating has been somatic therapy for my grief and a place for joy to exist.
How do you cope with moving grief through your body? Has skating or dance helped you?
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Winter solstice, the darkest night of the year...that's saying a lot after the darkness I experienced this year. Grief year two has been much more difficult than year one. The constant evolving state of the world, the resulting grief I'm walking around with from it. I've felt physically in pain most of the year. My back and neck from the car accident. My right knee. My hips. Between the physical and mental pain I've carried this year. There has been the pain of motherhood and struggles my children are enduring. Honestly the darkness of this year has been enough to make the light feel almost dim enough to leave me in darkness.
But then there is skating. It has been my light. A moment to forget everything that is wrong in this world. For me it continues to show me joy. It shows me light exists even sometimes in spite of the darkness.
There is so much beautiful light and adversity that I learned about myself from skating this year. So many beautiful friends, and people I have met and learned from. And I learned I can fall over and over, and keep getting up. I learned that even after spending everyday for a year I barely scratched the surface of what there is to learn. I'm proud of myself as a skater and a human for accomplishing things this year I wasn't sure I could do. I feel like I have grown a lot.
Here is to the gentle return to light. To the shedding of the darkness of the year that has passed us. Happy winter solstice 💙
Here is to all the friends and family that have helped me survive this year even if you aren't pictured I appreciate you so much.
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Joy isn't the absence of grief- it's the rebellion of choosing to celebrate and cultivate hope while broken and cracked open.
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I don't wanna be in the world without you
Baby, I don't wanna let you out my sight
I don't wanna
I don't wanna ever break away from you or the light might go away
I need you in my life
Let my smile bring you peace of mind
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Roller skating is truly an accidental love. One night in my grief after losing someone I loved I was brought to my first adult skate and I learned about a world of dance skating that I never knew existed.
Skating has been a form of meditation for me. Moving my body rhythmically to music on skates has brought me a relief from grief that I can't describe to anyone who doesn't skate. It brought joy when I wasn't sure I could ever feel it again. And It brought people into my life I never would have crossed paths with otherwise.
My year continued to only get more and more difficult during my 365 skate. I lost my pet Blackberry, then my grandmother in August, then my grief therapist. And there is more. But skating continues to be an anchor. And we all need this more than ever. I'm really grateful for the light that was brought into my life through skating and I'll never forget these memories and people. We didn't know this would be our last night with @djgregoryt at the King location but I think I'll never forget it thanks to everyone who gave me photos and videos and @funinskates 🎥@lilgsxrgr@meatball.mami and @sk8tara
I swear this is the last one.
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