reminder that every time you choose to put yourself out there, youâre winning. and trust me, i need to remind myself that too.
after this yearâs audition, I would be lying if I said I did not feel completely defeated and disappointed in myself. the moment my number was not called, I literally felt a pit in my stomach; it felt like all of the work, the time, the energy, and the heart I put into this year was for nothing.
i felt embarrassed, knowing that so many people have been cheering me on along my journey, and I had failed, unable to fulfill the expectations of others and of myself.
however, after a nice long couch cry, some long walks, big hugs, amazing conversations, and some incredible podcasts (thank you
@themindsetmentorpodcast and
@melrobbins ), I have been able to reflect and put things into perspective. it was one audition, one day out of the year, and one disappointment. it does not define me, it does not minimize the hours of hard work, and it does not have the power to knock me down. plus, it was an incredible experience that I feel so grateful to have had!!! truly- not everyone can say they got to dance at Radio City, and for that i feel so lucky!
i feel IMMENSELY grateful to
@fusion_exercise for pushing me every single week to be a better and stronger dancer. i have seen the progress week to week, and know how much we accomplished. i would not have had half the confidence i had going into the audition without Rhonda in my corner. i will take everything i learned to every future audition, and every future life endeavor. â€ïž
still much reflection left to do, but what I know is that working hard to attain a tremendous goal, losing sleep over something you want so bad, and knowing how farfetched a goal is, but betting on yourself and going for it anyway is tenacious and brave and REALLY COOL!!!
if thatâs something youâre doing right now, youâre very very cool for that. and if youâre scared to start, let me be the first to tell you that you absolutely should 10000% go for it with every fiber in your being, and know that no matter the outcome, you WILL come out stronger on the other side.
monologue over, now letâs go do the thing!!! ;) đȘđ