Yesterday I ran my very first marathon in my home city. And I don’t think I’ll ever fully be able to put the experience into words. 🏃♀️🇬🇧
The first 28 km’s were surreal. I felt strong, present, pacing exactly where I wanted to be. Everything I’d worked for was showing up. And then suddenly, like daggers, the pain hit. The knee injury I have been hosting pulled up and straight up said: “no”.
What followed was one of the most challenging moments of my athletic career. Not just due to the physical pain, but because of the conversations I had to have with myself. To let go of the potential. Detach myself from my ego. Forget the time & just keep pushing forward.
The struggle is well captured in the last slide 😂 But as I gave myself permission to walk (whilst holding back a flood of frustrated tears, ngl), I kept thinking about the many, many people around the world who wake up every day and do the impossibly hard things. But with no finish line, no crowd, no medal, and no one cheering them on.
So I chose to focus on simply putting one foot in front of the other. I repeated this to myself like a mantra for ~12 kms. Quitting was not an option I allowed myself to think about.
Before the run, I added some last minute songs to my playlist, “You’re a Superstar” being one of them. I had this weird feeling that it was going to play when I needed it. Surely enough, it was the song that played on shuffle, and got me across the finish line -
@beatsbydre didn’t fail me there 🌟
My heart ran for
@alzheimerssoc (+ all who generously donated )🧡 and this life changing experience was all made possible by
@newbalance &
@exposurelondon . I feel truly privileged to have been able to do something like this. The
@londonmarathon is an event which reveals so much about oneself and others.
SO TO ALL THE SUPERSTARS WHO:
- RAN (& chose to stay when it got tough)
- VOLUNTEERED (& on the streets helping others)
- SUPPORTED & CHEERED(!!!) — shout out to the girlies who held my hand & fed me jelly babies.
YOU are the people who make me & others remember how much beauty & goodness remains in this world, and most especially in the city we call home. BIG UP LONDON! I’ll be back.🏅