I’m at home with what is either the flu or food poisoning.
Every time I get up to get something to eat or a drink of water, it hurts. It hurts a lot. Tonight I’m missing Napalm Death with my friend from out of town.
Whenever this kind of thing happens I think about my mom. I think about all the things she did for dad and I even though she was in constant pain and suffering. I think about the things she sacrificed in order for others to be happy and for her to have an ounce of joy.
I wanted to see her today but my body aches are crazy and it’s selfish of me to go anywhere and potentially spread a sickness to others.
It happens to be Mother’s Day. I don’t believe in a higher being and that’s ok. I’m allowed so I’ll say this:
Mom, I love you. I miss you everyday. I’ve curled into Allison’s arms some nights because I miss you so much. I know I haven’t been by much and I need you to believe me when I say I’ve tried but it’s very hard and I know you need your rest.
If I’m wrong and there is a god, you tell them I’m so mad at them and I’ll never forgive them and I’d rather go to hell than apologize to something that treated you this way.
Wherever you are, I know you’re safe because you told me. You told me the day after you passed and I really appreciate it.
I love you so much. Happy Mother’s Day
‼️✨JUST ANNOUNCED ✨‼️
dead city booking presents-
ABOMINOG
HUMAN FLUID ROT
DRUGS OF FAITH
TREPANATE
SPIT PILE
AND A SECRET OTHER BAND
Friday August 7th @pieshopdc
15$ - Doors @ 7:30 Music @ 8
A night of noise and grime you don’t want to miss
tickets live at pieshopdc.com
I am in a great place mentally right now. I am very excited about touring the Midwest with @fluxusmt@viator_death@sm__chip and @seerthemagickian at the end of June. I’ll be posting about that more in the next week but I have to pat myself on the back for a moment for the weekend hustle. I spent somewhere around 18-20 hours setting up and mixing new samples for these upcoming gigs. Something I haven’t done in years. I was in my element, totally in control and focused. Even though I ran out of time last night to completely finish, I’ll have a solid and more permanent rig setup by next week without question. It’s a great feeling and these sounds are HEAVY. Thank you all for your love and support. I’ll be posting all the summer gigs throughout the next couple weeks. I love you all. Throw some chairs.
