“Gone is the Man that I Fell For” live version out now for @nprmusic Tiny Desk Contest 🤞🏽
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Special shoutout to @nickco1eman for setting this up!!
Band:
Vocals: Nadia Younes
Rhythm Guitar: Jordan Telgenhoff @ticklemystrings
Lead Guitar: Sam Shinnick @samshinnickmusic
Bass Guitar: Robert Bassett @bassslappa
Drums: Artem Bogusevich @artem.the.bagelsavage
Typewriter: Gui Nogueira @imgheekd
Song and Production:
Written by Nadia Younes
Music by Thomas M.L. Ravago @thomasmlravago
Produced by The Kickback Music
Audio Engineer: Robert Bassett @bassslappa
Mix and Mastering Engineer: Andrew James Clark @som1e.lse
Video Credits:
Del Rio Enterprises
Director/Cinematographer: Austin Cantu @austincan2
Camera Operator/Editor: Daniel Escobar @danielxescobar
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memorable moments:
networking night w the boys
beginning of big boy projects 🎥
DMario live performance on Hollywood Blvd.
first time playing catan and almost whooped these boys
BTS for Spellcast projects
MEH
peaking into sept 🥳
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1 & 2. Dockweiler beach and bonfire w friends
3. New laptop!
4. First outing at a picnic w new church friends. (Not gonna lie… I was nervous since I didn’t know anyone.)
5. Inside Out 2 w church friends
6. Kickball w church friends. It was so fun and competitive! It brought out the inner child in me. I honestly don’t remember when’s the last time I played.
7. Traveling back to Sac
8. Meeting my sisters dogs
9 & 10. Guests dancing el caballo dorado at sisters wedding
First time doing a photo dump. But it sure felt more like May took a dump on me. 💩 I feel like I’m not alone. Strangely, it feels like a collective experience where we’re just all going through it rn. Some of us have lost loved ones literally and figuratively. Not sure if I noticed this bc of my own experience. I don’t think it’s confirmation bias. It feels like everything is unfolding as it’s supposed to.
1. The calm before the storm
2 & 3. The universe trying to communicate with me on my walks, drives, and even while cooking. Been feeling lost and trying to decipher the messages.
4. I’ve wanted to move into my dream home for a while, just been to afraid to make the jump. My thoughts manifested this on my timeline.
5. The last sunset. Feelings of fondness and cherished memories.
6. Somehow I “accidentally” just opened it to where I could see both Ezekiel and Daniel. My dad’s name is Ezequiel and obviously I’m Daniel. I think the universe intended me to open the Bible exactly as I did.
The bottom passage is from John 5:19. I’ve taken in my dad’s footsteps.
7. For those who don’t know me well, I have a broken relationship with my father and haven’t spoken with him in years. He showed me his true colors after my parents divorce. I didn’t realize I’ve been carrying trauma since childhood. He never expressed to me that he loves me and I always felt like I had to prove myself to him. I’ve felt like I’m not enough. I feel like I was in denial and didn’t want to sound ungrateful bc he showed us that he loved us by providing. Somehow that made me look past all the times he took his rage out on me, abused me, and made me feel inadequate. But the truth is both love and abuse can’t coexist. I’ve been digging up these suppressed memories and it just feels like a lot to process.
8. An act of never ending love.
9. 999 - I’ve accepted that this is the end of this season. But endings aren’t always final. There’s always a new season. This season will have new stories and a new cast.
10. I realized there’s generational trauma in my family. The universe will put you in the same situations until you learn your lesson. I’m accountable for what comes after and putting an end to it.
I imagine this is what our parents, our grandparents, and those who came before us felt. I’ll most likely never be able to experience it to the same degree. At least not in this lifetime. But maybe this is the closest I’ll ever get.
Often times, our parents migrated here without knowing a lick of English, not knowing anyone, and leaving everything and everyone behind. All in the pursuit of a better life for themselves and their loved ones.
They dove into the unknown, not knowing what was ahead. Just trusted in the process that it would all work out in the end.
I unintentionally came across my old workplace, and it brought back memories. Memories of when I was at my absolute lowest and seeing how far I’ve come. The difference a few years can make.
From working at the movies to working ON THE movies. It’s been a ride. I remember receiving the call on March 17, 2020 of my old workplace laying us all off due to the covid shut down. I then dove into the unknown with my first official 9-to-5 job without the help of anyone.
On February 19, 2021, I dove into the unknown moving to Los Angeles, not knowing what to expect. In July of that same year I dove into the unknown by quitting that same 9-to-5 job. Without any back up plans and just trusting that everything would work out in the end. So far, everything has worked out. But yet again, I’m at the crossroads of choosing between comfort and pushing past those bounds. I’m choosing to dive into the unknown again. But in this era, I’m taking a quantum leap in my health, wealth and happiness.
Leaving Sac saddens me every time I visit. Everything I’ve known and leaving those closest to me hurts me deeply. But we can never grow in complacency.
I’m trusting myself and that it’ll all work out in the end. Just have to take it one day at a time.
