Oh, these beautiful handpainted letters. It pained me to scrape them off. I struggled but swiftly gave into the impermanence of it all. “…transient, evanescent, inconstant.” All things come into being, and all things dissolve. Without exception.
My youngest, here at the end of this video with me, was only 1-year-old when I moved into 187. I was still wearing her in a sling—wrapped tightly, tied twice, double-secured, check to make sure again, and again. I was still nursing her in one of the most intense cluster feeding phases of her/my life. What a f-cking time to embark on this sweet adventure with three kids under the age of 6. After over five years of running this bakery, art practice, catering studio, classroom, thing-a-ma-bob, I am letting go, allowing the contours to slack and re-form new shapes. Blobby, squiggly, zig-zaggy. Congruence and symmetry, let it be forgotten.
I’m still Bạn Bè :) Although I won’t be offering my food to the public for now, I continue to work with a small but mighty fine roster of clients and friends.
Bạn Bè as an amorphous bakery concept written down in a croquis sketchbook during my days at FIT: June 2003. Bạn Bè as planned, solidified, but suddenly derailed: Nov. 2019. Bạn Bè as a physical space, a breathing being, many heartbeats: Nov. 30, 2020–Jan. 31, 2026. Bạn Bè as-is: forever and ever; mãi mãi.
Thank you to every single person (and puppy!) who has walked up to this li’l window in Carroll Gardens and gave it a chance. Strangers who became dear friends. Friends who became family. I love you. As for this online space, I will still be updating here but it’ll look a little different. You should stay.
Love,
Doris
Film by my love
@markhokane who has borne witness to almost 25 years of our shenanigans and my constant leaps of faith and unshakable, outrageously foolish optimism. Thank you.