our time spent in India has been a lot of singing prayers, bhajans and learning Sanskrit…
for my journeying as
@staraskia , I didn’t expect how significant this blessing would be in answering my intentions to improve the quality and tone of my voice
and in our pilgrimage, as
@thepriestexes it has revealed practices that are evolving our purification process
in my first solo bhajan, one morning during prayers, I still was carrying so much fear, attachment and tension - my body full of tension, holding on so tight
every line I sang I could feel my throat closing
but then the voice came, “offer it to me”… and so on every line, I felt the tension, on the repeat invited my body to release and as I I kept repeating, I offered it all to the deities, all the curses of my mind
I stayed through all the pain, no matter how much I wanted to end it… and slowly, my mind changed, I experienced the liberation
following this, I spent everyday practicing and what happened was extraordinary… through the vehicle of these divine names, my voice strengthened, my musical theory expanded and my musicality improved in ways I have been trying to for the past year and a half - the grace of healing
the next time I sang in temple, I felt no fear and I could stay in my bhav, I actually felt excited to sing which I had never been able to experience over the pressure, I longed to actually sing (not just be in the fantasy of doing it)!
the voice, when an instrument for God, is liberated from all attachments
haribol
— 𝒮𝓉𝒶𝓇𝒶𝓈𝓀𝒾𝒶 ✫彡