i’m alright with a slow burn…
after some years of having some vague ideas I finally found the courage to just start.
welcome to ‘slow burn’ — an exploration of intention and connection. this is supposed to be a space that hopefully inspires some of you to reduce the pace of life and listen to yourself and people around you.
hopefully this grows into a space where I can host everything i’m passionate about: stories, music and intimate physical events that help people connect.
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'To look life in the face, always, to look life in the face and to know it for what it is. At last to know it, to love it for what it is, and then, to put it away.' — Virginia Woolf
Jan 26 — and everything good in it! 🤍
April 26 — pinch me pls. over and out. 😌
finding life in the in-between. Berlin, Oslo, Amsterdam, London and Innsbruck. @maurten_official campaign shoots and product launches, a @rosalia.vt concert, a sub-2h marathon, coffee with friends in London, a trail race with friends in Innsbruck, cute shoes, cuter t-shirts.
the soul has some catching up to do with the body. 💆🏻♂️ back to a routine.
views — dec 25 🤳🏼
'maybe it’s the fact that i can’t go back now.
maybe it’s the rivers, they’re much calmer now.'
the transition from 25 to 26 feels like the most assured I have ever been. like taking a deep breath. picking up the pieces and putting them back together. for no reason but for myself.
i am not really feeling at home anywhere at the minute. sort of lost as i’m transitioning and outgrowing the city i live in and where i have created so much. i have this longing for rain — wanting change to wash away some old things.
so i'm tearing things down and rebuilding my own house first. ground up. foundation first — new walls — new roof. all me.
— slow burn: the beginning of the year taught me to let things be wild. with all the love and pain. the dark winter months, the end of a relationship… it's all clad in grief and opportunity. sadness because things end and goodbyes are hard but also new horizons that hold new journeys.
it's about going through all these emotions with grace and humility and not about getting anywhere.
it's the slow burn.
clarity.
as we move through life sometimes true strength lies in acceptance. this year is a leason on that. accepting to maybe not be where you wanted to be. i’m not really where I wanted to be in terms of running, the actual geographic location and i’m not really with myself right now.
i’m also accepting that some things just don’t work out — because you actually have no idea what you want. sometimes in life you are just lost and at the minute i'm trying to find who I am once again.
here i am trying to find myself again and my home within me. it’s a bit cloudy but the nature, the mountains, running and my loved ones are around. so we just keep moving. it’s gonna be just fine 🤍
oh what a world #1 — seasons
glowing and happy to share my first edit of the @slowburn.cc newsletter.
this one is about seasons we all go through, being ready to sit in an empty space and about grief in all it’s forms: from the end of my relationship to the shift in my running world.
there is a link in the bio if you want to read.
excited for anyone who want’s to subscribe.
🫂🤍
feb. snaps between sickness, 100x150m indoor trail loops, Donna Summer, Rochelle Jordan, a sore hamstring, less running, more self doubt, frustration and the constant learning to let it flow again.
it‘s really interesting what happens when a lot of frustration meets a lot of joy in a very short span of time. both feelings can exist at the same time. from being sick at home to the best events in Milan to a sore hamstring, another sickness and being full of inspiration being in bed watching the Olympics. ✌🏻
life can pull you in so many directions at the same time and to feel all of that just shows how alive we are. my sickness and little injury just helped me slow down again and it is the most beautiful feeling to let it be slow and let everything else be fast.
maybe tomorrow is the right time again - maybe not :)
@acg@mental.athletic@rochelle_jordan@berlinbraves@claudia.gillies@mattiabalsamini
SLOW BURN — an exploration of intention & connection
this tattoo I got in 2020 to remind me of putting in the work and being patient with myself.
it really is about showing up with the intention to connect with yourself but also with others. Putting some love and kindness and grace above anything else.
more coming soon 🤍
October '25 — i choose to stand in the light. ✨
cold weather, warm thoughts about people who opened their doors and hearts this past fall and who created a home away from home state-side. 🤍
life was a bit fast this year and I stretched myself so thin. wanting to be everything, everywhere — all at once. lacked intention and focus and came up short and disappointed some people but mostly myself. I know better most of the time.
having a break from Berlin and being with the funniest, kindest people in Boulder, Austin and NYC (+ shoutout to my therapist) made me realise that i have all the power to put myself in the sun. i make the rules for my own happiness and i really just don‘t have to put up with anything less that what I truly need and want. 🌞 … also: yes we are a bit on a journey here to re-evaluate what gives me energy and where my energy should go to.
want to leave some love for everyone who made me laugh, reflect think harder, question more and who made me feel seen and at home and like I belong.
… lonely with a capital h. 🦎
it‘s quite interesting how we all constantly have the need to define ourselves. by our job, friends, relationships, events, brands, activities. feeling like we always have to be somewhere.
i‘m really somewhere in the middle of nowhere and i‘m leaning into this feeling of just being on my own and exploring my soul again. not creating anything for a community, not having to prove to anyone that i‘m capable, not feeling the urge to show to a heteronormative world that i‘m a good enough gay man.
it really is about giving myself grace to be nowhere and to be on my own.
🪐 i‘ll come find ya when i feel like it.
