THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH FOR 50k FOLLOWERS 🥺🫶🏼
It’s milestones like these where I’m reminded of the advice my good friend Barrack Obama once told me: “Rōnin, let me be clear; no matter what you decide to pursue in life, make sure you approach it with the purest sense of wonder and imagination which in turn allows you to have both the stamina to become the best and the confidence to understand there will always be more to learn… And above all else; always remain humble and never name drop”
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Work until your idols become your rivals I guess? Disheartening is really the only emotion that comes to mind when I think about this situation. Especially considering I’ve only ever defended this guys work when I’ve seen it stolen by other people trying to pass it off as their own. If anyone’s been following me long enough you know how true that statement is. Really hoping Charles does the right thing and responds to allow me the opportunity to refute his false claim.
I don’t think I’ve created a body of work that has been stolen or copied more times than when I filmed this Porsche GT3rs. So much so that even when I repost this people think that I’M the one stealing it lol I mean for good reason I guess, it’s definitely the most fun I had while filming, and the most extensive when it comes to the sequencing and the dynamic b-rolls. I filmed this almost 2 years ago during the summer over the course of 3 nights and 3 different locations. Even the editing took forever. Not as much as the sound designing though… that endeavor took just as long as the filming, editing, and color grading combined. Idk if that means I’m tedious or just slow. I’ll let you decide that 😭
Summer of 2025. I’m on the verge of burnout. I’d been posting consistently every week and growing but with growth came an overwhelming sense of inadequacy. You see, It was getting increasingly difficult to keep up this idea of “quality” I had built up in my head. I felt like I had set a standard for myself and the thought of having to always uphold this truly arbitrary ideal was becoming mentally exhausting to the point of creative paralysis. Any thought I had for creating always came with the secondary thought of trying to push the envelope of what I’ve done before. I stopped creating to create and only wanted to outdo myself with every opportunity. Unfortunately, this pattern of thinking always lead to a dead-end where I would convince myself it wasn’t good enough and therefore I should stop and move on. Most people understand that growth comes from struggle no matter if that struggle is external or internal, but the truth is I’ve always hidden those battles. I’ve failed countless times but those failures were always done in silence and it felt like that beautiful luxury was now gone. I know, even as I write this down it all seems so funny to me and in retrospect I’d consider myself melodramatic but it truly was terrifying and all consuming. At the time of all this I didnt know how to face it so I did the most rational thing I could think of and bought a one way ticket to Norway😂 I wasn’t sure how long I would be overseas or how I would afford anything, all I knew is I wanted to gtfo of my current environment. There wasn’t anything inherently wrong with it I just needed a reset.
Once settled in I had really hoped to make the most out of this trip with filming. Although, at the same time I really just wanted to detach and not approach eveything through the goggles of “content creation.” I don’t think every moment needs to be filmed but I’m glad these were 🥹 Fast forward 6 months later; I don’t think I have much more figured out from when I left but I do know I’m sick and tired of holding myself back.
