Last week I went to the oral surgeon for the second time. I was nervous. The first time I was sick for days afterwards and almost fainted afterwards and I hoped this time would be different. I kept telling myself: relax, keep breathing, everything will be fine.
But the moment I sat in the chair, my body had already decided. My shoulders tightened, small shivers ran through my body, like a quiet vibration under the skin. The more I tried to relax, the more I noticed how my body was slowly freezing.
It’s strange how the body can take over before the mind catches up.
This moment — when instinct moves faster than thought — is exactly what I’m researching in my performance Tegen de Muur. The work explores how the nervous system reacts in moments of tension, when the body protects itself before we even understand what is happening.
I’m curious:
What happens when your body tenses and your nervous system shifts into survival mode: fight, flight, freeze, fawn, or collapse?
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@rick.vw 
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