Our piece „Queere Räume“ @wukvienna meant so much to me. 2 years before I suffered a rough health patch that made me house & almost bed bound for a whole year. I missed uni & couldn‘t see my friends due to my weak immune system at the time. I had to be so careful & I felt so alone. Disconnected from my old life, my friends, the strength of my body & my joy, it was incredibly scary & I focused all my energy on just getting through it. Time slows down when you’re sick. It was a very long year. And the one catching up on all the courses I had missed was equally as challenging, in a different way. Academic burnout followed my sprint to catch up & a painful break up from a long term partner was the cherry on top to tie it all together.
When I saw the open call for this piece something awoke in me again- I could feel curiosity for the first time in a long time- what if I take a chance on this? The opportunity to get back on stage & experiment, getting to know myself again in a queer & disability friendly context was exactly what I needed. My body had hardly moved for the 1,5 yrs prior & my health was still not back to normal, but I had to see where this would take me.
That weekly practice gave me room to meet myself again & see who I wanted to be outside of who I’d been before so much had changed. Little did I know that many of the cast would end up being some of my closest friends years down the line. Creating a piece centered around queer joy, anger, togetherness, otherness & especially my character focusing on trans joy gave me a playground to explore so much of myself that I had not been able to hold & run with the years prior. It felt like a small blooming after a long season of winter; like snow roses before spring. I now know I laid the seeds for a lot more joy to come. It was a special time, not always easy, but so important to finding myself again. Thank you to everyone who weaved laces of hope with me during that time, you don’t know how much it meant!✨🧚🏼🌱🦋 Development/Performance: Maël Gutscher Teo Hassan Chelle Montocchio Hannah Birnbaumer Rhonda D’Vine Paula Linhart Milo Nenning Mica Schwab Ze Panayi Director: Kath Fischer & Cosmo H. PM: Ulli Koch
this role was such a turning point for me. through “jack the fairy” I felt like I was slowly growing wings again after a long hard year of being sick during the pandemic. I had finally regained some of my energy and was overjoyed to play in this theatre piece at @wukvienna ! more pics to come!🧚🏼♂️🧚🏼🧚🏼♂️🧚🏼🧚🏼♂️🧚🏼🧚🏼♂️🧚🏼♀️🧚🏼♂️🧚🏼♂️🧚🏼♂️🧚🏼🧚🏼♂️🧚🏼🧚🏼♂️🧚🏼🧚🏼♂️ 🧚🏼thank you to @squigglywormies for lending me these precious wings- pierced and burn marks crafted by them 🌀
I haven’t posted here in ages. In fact, I have maaaany photos lined up that go back to about 1 1/2 years ago. And at this point it’s just frustrating me that my feed is so behind on my current life because I have changed and I want to show that. But I don’t want to just scrap all those photos and memories I have carefully colour coded for the past year while still trying to have them in chronological order bc for me these photos are a kind of experiences-diary. I just had so many photos at some point that I didn’t post any at all. But it’s annoying the heck out of me so I’m just doing it now. Don’t know if the others will follow soon or if it’ll take a while but my goal is to get the past photos of 1 1/2 years on here so I can show some current stuff. —————————————— about this one: we went to a super sweet, small and „homey“ haha festival called @homefestivalvienna and my lovely friend @scharfepfefferoni wore this banger outfit so we did a photoshoot with her. #analogphotography #istillshootfilm #filmisalive #filmisnotdead #analogfilm #lomolca #lomography #ootd #lovelyhuman #igersaustria
According to “final table” Spain is a hot spot for fine, versatile cuisine but whenever I go its mainly oily meat and lots of eggs. But at least I got these fish noodles on top- made for quite a culinary adventure. #holiday #spain #foodblogger #food #finaltable #spanishfood #campvibes #surfholiday #igersaustria #lomography #staybrokeshootfilm #filmisnotdead #istillshootfilm #analogphotography #canona1 #lomofilm
Roses, cows, new friends and old thing. Sweet pup, sandwich man, big mountain and old church again. #analogphotography #istillshootfilm #filmisnotdead #staybrokeshootfilm #lomography #lomofilm #canona1 #surfholiday #mountains #landscapephotography #memories #holiday #explore
The generic surf camp food we all love and are annoyed by at the same time. I love it because it’s the reminder in the morning that he’ll yeah you’re at a Surfcamp and that’s the way to start a lovely surf day! It tastes really good the first few weeks but after some time, eating the same breakfast for months does get a little annoying. I took this shot with my #lomolca because I wanted to capture the stereotypical surf brekkie :) who else has this relationship to Surfcamp breakfast? #surfcamp #surf #camplife #surfcamplife #baguette #baconandeggs #cocoa #musli #lomolca #lca #lomography #istillshootfilm #filmisnotdead #staybrokeshootfilm #analogphotography #lomofilm #surfholiday #surflife
This is me being active, going outside, exploring and being fascinated by new things- also mimicking that dude but that’s not the point. I don’t currently feel very adventurous or active or driven- it’s quite the opposite. I’m not sure how or if I want to express that. When I see others being open about their struggles and mental health on social media I don’t judge them. I have empathy and I think they are brave for talking about shit that is still not talked about enough. And I can (sometimes) relate and it’s good to see and hear that others are facing similar feelings and struggles. But when it comes to me being open about it I get scared. I get scared of judgement or of people thinking I’m just making excuses or that what I’m going through isn’t valid and real and shit. Because I have heard those things before and it’s not easy to not let those kind of words get to me. But I want to be open and not just feed into the “oh I’m having such a great adventurous life” thing Instagram lets us all promote so easily. So this is my way of tipping my toe in those waters and saying those photos aren’t all there is to life and it can be really really hard and sadly often we don’t even know what others are going through because being open and vulnerable is not naturally taught in society. Especially since older generations were even more alone in their struggles because back then there wasn’t the awareness we have of mental health and lots of other things we have today. But we’re all in the struggles of life one way or another and I think it’s good to share that and be open about it. I hope this helps someone, as it has helped me to read about others sharing their thoughts on these topics. Please be nice if you want to share your thoughts in the comments. K that’s it. ❤️ #mentalhealth #vulnerability #socialmedia
