From @sacredmovement__ 's floorwork intensive 🫶🏽💋
It's wild to see the growth in my movement, its even wilder to feel it in my body. I was shaking throughout this whole shoot day, lack of food and a surplus of caffeine tends to do that. Felt lightheaded the whole time but as soon as camera was on the body took over.
I can feel my synapses working better, mind & body connection is connecting, i'm able to embody and sit with the choreo to a point that i don't need to think anymore. It just flows through my little limbs.
I've said this once and will continue to say it, yas is the best dance teacher in bali fr. The growth i've experienced as a dancer during my time with her is unmatched.
This woman doesn't just know how to move, she knows how to _teach_ which is no easy feat! She's able to break everything down and make things feel easier, softer, smoother. She can push you without the point of overwhelming you, and i think the most important part is she makes you feel _safe_.
As someone with massive anxiety and years of going in and out of studios, that's a feeling that is very rare. I feel like i have the room and freedom to explore and be, which then gives me the space to feel comfortable in my movements and my body. 🤍
@sacredmovement__ looks away for 10 seconds and suddenly there's some type of shenanigan going on between me and @frendapoer 👀
We apologise, it will happen again.
Random snippets of the past year that makes my heart go 💖🫶🏽✨🌞 one of the best yrs of my life, i was surrounded by so much love, laughter, friendship, abundance, community, feminine power, intimacy, and gratitude.
I love my dumb little life so much, wont change it for the world. Here's to more gallivanting, more nonsense, more clownery, more giggle gaggles, and everything else in between. 🤍🤍🤍
Love me a good girl gang moment 💁🏽♀️✨
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But real talk, i've been very pleased at the progress i'm making with femme styles. I feel like i'm finally at a level that i am happy with. Obv there's always room for improvement, there's always little parts that i wish would flow better, choreos that i cant seem to retain well enough, and that pesky balance that i can never seem to get the hang of-
But overall i feel like my body is finally moving the way my brain is telling it to. Mind body connection is slowly settling in, and i am constantly amazed at my own muscle memory. Gonna try and post more dance vids on my feed maybe perhaps who knows...
But also huge shoutout to @sacredmovement__ cs ive seen more growth with you than i have with any other classes. If you wanna try femme dance, come join her classes or hit her up for privates!!
🎥@nikiforova.prod
Dance and I have always had a complicated relationship. I started baby ballet in preschool, but quit because everyone was better than me. Tried again in 3rd grade — kids hip hop at Darmawangsa Square (shoutout 1, 2 Step by Ciara) — but I stopped again. It just never felt like my world.
This kept happening until I was 22. I’d walk into studios and walk right back out, feeling like I wasn’t good enough to stay.
Then came 2022. I told myself to get over it and just do the thing. Pole had always been a dream — but I didn’t feel flexible, strong, or confident enough. Still, I signed up. Started showing up to class 2–3x a week. I also threw myself into ladies style — learning to be in my body, to understand movement. It was hard, and I sucked for most of it (still struggle now tbh), but I kept going.
In 2023, I did my first pole performance and felt like I was on cloud 9. Then came a year-long hiatus.
Fast forward to Magic City — and something in me needed to be back on stage. Problem was: I hadn’t trained in 4 months. My body felt heavy, stiff, uncoordinated. But I had 2 weeks — so I practiced every day until the routine felt like mine (spoiler: it’s not. I spliced a Nicole Kirkland floor piece w/ Polina's old choreos and added some spice).
Did I do well on the night?
Not really — I had one too many shots 😂 (and omg dancing on an X stage is a whole different thing)
So here’s the best video I have of what the performance was supposed to look like.
I’m not a pro — but I do this with my whole heart.
Pole and dance helped me understand my body. Be present in it. Connect with my sensuality. It taught me that my femme is my strength. That this is what it means to be female. The power we hold lives in our curves, our softness, our sensuality.
Say what you will about women on poles — but if you ask me why I do this, this is it.
