Look at me not wanting to be looked at because I want to be seen but not perceived. Amorphous blob gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Okay bye heading back to my cave
I will see you when I cee me
Love, love 💌
community zine and love letter to love
So excited to finally share little bits and pieces of the moments shared behind the zine for February!
@myceeshft and I burned a book for some of his pieces that are in the zine. Partially in a shady alley and partially in a kitchen without turning the chimney on. We made 3 stops and a call for the lighter. And giggled a lot on the call being returned. The tears were from the laughter and smoke.
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Weekly collective art witchual.
Focus on the red dot and deepen your breath with each turn.
May your shadows come to light and your light reveal your shadows. May this support you.
Don't watch for too long or you might puke
Vision and wisdom: @myceeingeye
Art witchual: @myceeshft
Animation: @myceetype
Cee here! 🔻🔱
Honesty.
Making changes to your life is not the same as repressing that which is showing up for you at the moment.
Saying you want to be positive about something that is making you deeply uncomfortable makes you pretend and mask that which you are feeling.
The catalyst for change is not only being ignored but also disrespected and wasted.
Feelings are not facts. They depend on the narrative you tell yourself. However while they are short lived they are vital information about you, your world view and your self view.
It is necessary to see your narrative as is.
It is vital to acknowledge the depth and movement of that which you are feeling with full honesty in order for it to move and not get trapped into your body.
Emotions are fluid. They move, they need to move. It is not in their nature to become stagnant. Which means that when you repress what you feel, lie about it, pretend like you feel otherwise and/or mask your feelings, they get stuck and your fascia twists and knots in ways that get stuck.
Once twisted, they continue to twist the more you lie to yourself and the bigger they will feel when you finally have the space to sit with them.
You can both physically and emotionally move them, provided you have the capacity to sit with what follows.
Feelings are not facts, but they are vital information about how you view your narrative.
A narrative you have control over rewriting to a certain degree. You cannot be in control of everything and nor should you expect that to ever happen.
Being true to your heart, body, mind and self requires a great deal of courage. Being honest about how you show up to yourself and those around you takes bravery and a lot space in your life.
No shame if that space feels unavailable or if you have limited energy for holding that space. However you can always generate more energy.
There are lots of ways to do that.
(Continued in comments)
Channel by @myceeingeye
Liminality by @myceeshft
Artwork and animation by @myceetype
Cee here! 🔻
Boundaries:
The reason you are struggling with boundaries isn't because you're not assertive enough or that you are not seeing the right ones. It' because you have confused drawing boundaries with making requests.
You ask to be treated a certain way, call it a boundary and expect people to just follow. That's not a boundary it's a request. A request coming from your desire to control other people: their actions towards you, their perception of you, their intention, their motivation. Everything that centers them. Nothing to do with personal responsibility and accountability of the situation.
Control rooted in fear and perfectionism.
Decenter and recalibrate.
Boundaries are about what you do. It' about your actions based on how someone else acts towards you.
Responsibility = response ability.
For example, someone speaks to you a certain way during conflict and you don't like it. Asking them to speak to you differently is a request, a boundary can be: "I don't like how you speak to me when you're agitated, the next time your tone feels condescending or you call me names I will be exiting the conversation and will be reconsidering our relationship due to the lack of respect you show me".
Notice how it has to do with a person's action, how it makes you feel and how you will respond to it.
You can't control other people, you cannot control their perception of you, you cannot control what they do, you cannot control anything about them. The only thing you can control and that you can do is choose to respond a certain way.
Since we're on the topic let us also revise the difference between a response and reaction.
Responding vs reacting is a matter of choice and self control. You can choose to respond with anger, you can choose to respond with dismissal you can choose. It is about choice and agency. A reaction is one where you feel emotions too big to hold and you just react out of no choice and agency. It just happens.
All that I have said so far is about choice, personal agency, responsibility and accountability. Boundaries have nothing to do with controlling the other person's actions they are about choosing yours.
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