Hi I’m Mills & I want to share my story. Tw: Abuse, do not read if sensitive <3
I want to talk about the realities of DV within a relationship, and continue understanding through sharing. (I do not wish to discuss his identity publicly)
It began with small acts such as pushing, cigarette burns, which turned into biting and strangulation. This escalated to cheating and sexual assault, which happened again a year later.
Lines got blurred as feelings of love, safety and fear co-existed. I submitted, became addicted to the destruction of it, wanted it even. The thought; ‘Its already happened once, so what else is there to loose’
I spent 7+K in supporting his housing, lifestyle and addiction.
I have stayed in 9 houses this year trying to make it work.
I felt as though I had lost everything, my money, my sanity, my closest friend, my mum, as well as my mental and physical health. My autoimmune disease flared, period became irregular, and distorted eating began.
During this time I documented moments, often showing the pain. I also wrote and performed my show (Un)sex me, my way of exploring feelings through movement and poetry, without having to accepting it.
One day about as rock bottom as it can get, the Scorpio in me woke and I was absolutely fucking done. I was sent a magic £ parcel by someone very dear to me, which allowed me to get my own space. And to the people that never gave in on me, never let up, I will be forever thankful.
I am fundraising for EMDR therapy/red light therapy. Anything you have would be appreciated :)
Link- https://gofund.me/e3a04d4f6
or follow my bio 💕
My goal for 2026 is to create show ||, Sex Me, which will be a slutty, dark, emotional montage of heightened moments of sexual liberation 😏 Proceeds will be going to a chosen charity, so stay tuned!
If you are living through or need support with DV
@londonfriendlgbt provide tailored counselling
National DV hotline for women in England: 08082000247
I would also love to start a book club at my house, maybe one morning a month with other survivors. DM me if this is you 💖 (East London)
Love and light & happy festive period y’all.
Stay with us, you got this
Mills x
