This is the most raw post I’ve ever made. But I believe that letting people truly know you is what life is all about. A few years ago, thinking about saying the words “I’m gay” to anyone, let alone on social media made me feel like I was going pass out…or away. but now I honestly can’t wait to post this. Hi, I’m gay. :)
I feel like I’ve always known. But from a young age it seemed impossible to be accepted for who I was. I was scared I would lose my family and be alone for eternity. I was terrified of facing consequences, hurting those I love. I felt so much shame that my only option was to hide. I focused on doing things that I thought would “fix me” so I could survive in the world I was living in.
The past few years it became apparent that I needed to face who I really am. I wanted to love this part of me that I knew should never have been “fixed”. It’s been a long road. It has taken so much and has affected people I love along the way. There’s been ups and downs. But I’m here now. I’ve learned so much. And I have so much to be grateful for. This piece of me that I spent so long trying to suffocate, is now one of my most cherished parts. I am gay. And I’m so grateful for that gift. I’m grateful and privileged to live in a time where the societal consequences of being Queer are improving. I am so grateful to be surrounded by family and friends who love me. I am so deeply grateful for the life I’ve lived, my relationships, my kids. I wouldn’t change anything about the path I’ve chosen to take.
I feel I’ve returned home to myself. To a familiar, safe, energizing, and warm place. A home that I ran away from 25+ years ago. This person I am, feels exactly like the adult I imagined I would be as a child. She’s so familiar and I love her. I’m home now.
If you are struggling to accept and love yourself, remember you’re perfect just the way you are. You are worthy. Please feel free to reach out if you ever need anyone to talk to or if you need some hype. I got you.
Honestly I just love you all and appreciate you being a part of my life in some way. Thank you and good night! ✌️
I married the most magical, beautiful, compassionate, mesmerizing woman 1 year ago today. I honestly don’t know where to begin to describe how her love has altered my chemistry down to my core.
She is the most grounding partner, who sees me on my very worst days and holds my hand to get through it. She sees my insecurities, my weaknesses, my traumas, and holds them so gentle, loves me for them. She is fierce, and will fight every single day for me and the kids to live a calm, safe and beautiful life. She exudes love and warmth to everyone she meets. She is gentle, hypnotic, soulful and deep. She is hilarious and happy, her laugh is the most incredibly beautiful sound. I love her so much.
Finding Keiyana felt like coming home, it felt like waking up, like seeing in color for the first time. I literally looked in her eyes and received an electric shock through my whole body, and that has never quite stopped... It felt like remembering something ancient, something that’s happened before in millions of lifetimes before this. I just knew I was always meant to be hers. And she was meant to be mine. There was never one shred of doubt.
We both had to go through a lot to get to each other. We have had to feel the effects of others negative opinions and beliefs and choose to get through it together. To have what we were made for and to be all that we were meant to be. I will continue to choose her every single day, every single time and fight for this love that is fierce, gentle, feral, and sacred. Im so grateful for this beautiful person and for our life together. 03/01/25
#wlw #anniversay #marryme #itsyou
So I guess my infant is now a teenager and I’m just supposed to be ok. 😂 Miles is such a special guy. He is funny and loves to tease. He has an incredibly logical mind and a sensitivity to others emotions and experiences. He tries his best at everything and it doesn’t bother him to be new at things, which is such an incredible trait of his. He is a great hype man and is always quick to encourage others. He is the man of our house and the man of our hearts and we are so grateful for him in our lives. 🖤 happy birthday Mubs, we love you so much! Also- his sweet voice is now in full on teenager mode so please enjoy the last video and join us in saying farewell to those notes being sung so effortlessly by our little boy. 🥹
11! Evy is the absolute coolest. She balances her bright silly positive attitude with a dark sense of humor. She is deep and creative and dynamic and curious and witchy. She is emotionally intelligent far beyond her years. This little girl is going to do the coolest things in life and I can’t wait to watch it all! We love her so so much! Happy birthday Evy! 🌿
This BABE. She performed at the Equality Utah Gala last weekend and casually blew everyone away. I love watching people hear her sing, almost as much as I love hearing it myself. She radiates beauty, brings warmth, sincerity, and this wild gravitational energy into every room she walks into. She is an INCREDIBLE singer and literally could do anything she wants with it. But she is so much more to me. She truly sees me, she is patient with me when I LEAST deserve it, she makes me laugh so hard it hurts. She saves the best TikToks to show me. She respects me, supports me endlessly, and is the most present, kind, loving bonus parent to the kids. Keiyana has dealt with so many health issues the past while. It has felt like taking one step forward and then sent back a hundred steps at times. I will truly never understand what she has gone through with this, but I have had a front row seat to her resilience, the faith she has in her body and mind, the strength and humor she keeps, despite how she feels. She is absolutely incredible. Literally the brightest human being I have ever met on this entire planet and walking through life with her is a dream come true. 🖤
Thank you @equalityutah for having us and hosting such an important event. Being in an entire theater filled with members of the community, allies, and so much acceptance and love always heals a part of my little gay heart. 🌈
She’s literally everything. 🖤 ALSO her first single comes out at midnight tonight! If you’re looking for a vibe look no further than @keiyanaosmond . She’s just getting started. #utahsingersongwriter #newmusic :)
We still can’t believe this day was real and it feels like we’ll forever be processing how perfect it felt. When we made the decision to elope, we knew we needed the kids by our side and that we wanted to share that moment with a few of our closest friends, the people who have been outspoken in their support from the very beginning. Without hesitation, they immediately found a way to be there, some even driving six hours just to stand by our side.
From capturing photos and video, to officiating the ceremony, arranging flowers, playing music, and just bringing the perfect vibe. Their love, support, and willingness to show up for us made this day unforgettable. We couldn’t have done it without them.
We wanted to share some highlights from that day. Thanks to @celinereneecreative and @hunter.colton12 for putting this together and capturing our perfect, intimate, magical day.
Chopped my hair off. :) I think I’ve spent the past week a little overwhelmed by all the insecurities it brought out and dealing with feelings of expectations of myself I’ve seemed to have adopted deep down.
Today I took the top off the jeep and I was just like wtf I have short hair!
I seriously have not let myself feel the joy of how this actually feels!
Life feels so good. I have really freaking short hair. I married the hottest girl of my dreams. I have cool kids. I’m in a rad nursing program with the best classmates. The top is off the jeep and it’s getting warm outside.
Just here in the school pick up line with a self reminder to allow myself to sit and FEEL my joy. Cheers and happy weekend! ✌️
