I wonāt lie, committing your mind, body and soul to a feature film isnāt easy work.
Do I feel like I have something to prove to myself, for perhaps not going to university or having the opportunity to complete school?
This little bookworm girl, once lost in everyone elseās stories, now has a chance to share her own, hoping to strike a chord, so perhaps others donāt feel unsure and alone, in this sometimes unpredictable world?
Hard to believe, but I do consider myself an introvert, I have a very small handful of close friends that truly know me and I do like it that way, along with mostly preferring my own company.
I find myself sometimes questioning, wondering: Why are you putting yourself out there, under this pressure?
In hindsight, I believe itās deeper than that, itās knowing, I perhaps resonated, could mentor someone that needed guidance, contributing in some way by giving others opportunities.
Thereās also a catharsis happening throughout this, perhaps a release from my past, as we near the end of our filming block, learning so much about myself and maturing in the process. Learning to accept who I am, stop being a people pleaser and be happy with what I have achieved, releasing the imposter syndrome and to stop chasing the next big thing.
Contentment. Just be. Youāre ok where you are.
Some great advice from a friend this week, your film; your legacy will outlive you, itās a part of you, left behind. A piece of you, shared with the world.
Only a few more days of filming left, one step closer to sharing my storyā¦..
@myinnerchild_film Break-Away - Written by šāāļø Performed by -
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