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For months I’ve been pouring my heart into this. Messages From Your Higher Self was born out of a very real season of heartbreak, healing, and rediscovering my worth.
It’s more than just words, it’s the gentle reminder you need when your heart feels heavy, the nudge to keep going when you feel lost, and the whisper that you are never truly alone.
This is my gift to you. 🌿💛
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Every day, I’m getting more familiar with being myself.
And honestly, this started when I decided who I wanted to be… and began practicing showing up as her.
I know what it feels like to have a vision for your life, to want more for yourself, but still feel stuck in a place you don’t really want to be.
That feeling of being stuck can quietly turn into an identity.
You start seeing yourself as someone who can’t become.
And from there, you begin to make decisions from fear.
You procrastinate. You hold back.
What I’ve learned is this, the answer is practice.
Be clear on who you want to be.
Write it down.
What kind of person is she? What traits does she have?
Then create routines that make you feel like her.
That has helped me a lot.
And it’s why I created my Becoming page — @the_becomingplace
I want to help people move from self-doubt to self-trust, and actually follow through.
Because really, what separates where you are from where you want to be… is consistency.
Anyway, this wasn’t even supposed to be a deep post 😅
I just think I look really cute in these pictures and I want to practice showing up more.
Like I said… every day, I’m getting more familiar with being myself.
You’ve seen glimpses of her…
the version of you that is consistent
grounded
disciplined
clear
someone who actually follows through
And for a moment, it feels possible.
But then life happens.
You get tired.
You lose momentum.
You start over.
Again.
And again.
And again.
And now there’s this quiet doubt sitting underneath everything:
“What if I’m just not that person?”
That’s the part no one really talks about.
Because from the outside, it looks like procrastination.
Or inconsistency.
Or lack of discipline.
But internally… it feels like:
Trying.
Stopping.
Questioning yourself.
And slowly starting to lose trust in your own word.
I’m here for that version of you.
The one who is tired of starting over.
The one who is ready to stop playing with her potential.
The one who wants to actually become.
It is possible for you.
Not because you’ll suddenly become more motivated.
But because you can learn how to build self-trust—intentionally.
That’s what this space is about.
Helping you Become someone who can finally rely on herself.
If that’s where you are right now…
you’re in the right place.
Let’s go back to 2016.
The era where we were all falling in love with acting.
It was just you, your camera, a white background… and a monologue you found online or from a movie you loved.
We were all budding actors with hope and dreams in our eyes.
I really miss that time.
I really miss that version of me.
The one who was just passionate about the craft… about getting better… about those simple monologues that meant everything.
So I’m doing a thing.
I’m going back to those monologues — the ones I used to obsess over — from plays and movies, and I’m redoing them from my perspective now.
Back then, I was so focused on sounding right.
Speaking properly.
But not really feeling it.
Now, I want to experiment again
this time focusing on the feeling, not the sound.
I won’t lie, I feel a bit rusty.
I haven’t been practicing like I should.
So this is me getting back into it.
Finding my way back to the craft.
To the feeling. To the expression.
Acting is one of the ways I get to express my soul… and I’m so grateful for that.
Anyway… who remembers this monologue?
Emma Stone in Birdman. We all did it that year, right? 😂
And why were we all doing American accents like that? 😭
Good times.
So… what do you think about my reimagining?
Maryann Monologues is lowkey back.
Dear friends, followers, stalkers, and strangers,
I hope this letter meets you well and life has been treating you nice. If so, doxology.
I’m writing because I’ve been away for a while, and it is my wish to make myself known to you again. If I’m honest, to get to where I want to be, I need you to witness me.
So what has Maryann been up to?
I mentally checked out of the system of the world to find myself. I was tired of feeling unsuccessful, so I went searching for the thing that would bring me the life I want. I found a truth that connects with my spirit, and it is now guiding my becoming.
The truth is this: I am the creator of my existence. The power to have the life I want is in my hands. To create my life, I must align with my higher self — my authentic self.
Becoming her has been daunting. It is hard to face yourself.
I am now obsessed with the journey of becoming. I want to tell that story, with my life as a case study. Proof that if you persist, you can become the person of your dreams.
My dream life is to be a financially free, successful, creative. A renowned actor and filmmaker. A confidence mentor for children through Young Actors Club. A businesswoman. A voice in wellness and self-actualization. Fit. Living in enjoyment and truth.
The gag is, I’m already her. She’s just hidden behind my false self.
So I’ve been breaking old patterns. Ego. Limitations. I’m ready to be free.
I’ll be sharing here from this new perspective. And I’d be sharing more consistently because that’s the more aligned choice. Obviously.
I share a lot of the tea of my becoming on TikTok, link in bio.
I’m glad I’ve caught you up.
Write me back. Tell me if this resonates. Tell me if you’ll walk with me.
Your becoming girl,
Maryann Ivy Amakor
10 things I love about me 1. I love that I have an active imagination and I get to dream up the life I want. 2. I love that I’m curious and enjoy learning new things and getting to know people. 3. I love that I’m open-minded and not judgmental. 4. I love that I like to listen and learn from others. 5. I love that I’m intentionally building a life that I truly desire. 6. I love that I’m comfortable in my solitude and enjoy being with myself and learning about myself. 7. I love that I’m generous and kind, and I have no problem giving when I have. 8. I love that I have a good sense of style, even when I don’t have much in my wardrobe, I can still put something together and look fly. 9. I love that I’m beautiful, I love my body, I’m dedicated to fitness and showing up for myself however I can. 10. I love that I haven’t given up on myself. At 32, I’m still refining, still going, still showing up.
Most times we don’t like to say the things we love about ourselves. We hide under a false sense of humility, when sometimes it’s really just our insecurities speaking.
So take a moment today and think about the things you truly love about yourself. Count them.
Because when you really sit down and look at it… you might realize you’re pretty amazing too.
