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Just pure healing and all its evidence. ✨
Yesterday marked 17 days post Endometriosis Excision Surgery, which also categorized me as stage 2, gave me my official diagnosis, removed fibroids, and removed an endometriosis nodule.
I was able to drive myself to one of my favorite places for healing. The benefits of the minerals in the natural sulfuric spring did my body some much needed good. To sit with my thoughts, feelings, and hold more healing space for my body was far more needed than my intentional planning could have even understood. Moving slowly and mindfully is needed within each step I take through this recovery.
#Endometriosis #ExcisionSurgery #Healing #VichySprings #Pisces
Today marks 2 weeks since my complex Endometriosis excision surgery. Yesterday I had my post-op visit, got the surgical tape removed from my incisions and was cleared to submerge into water again, which is music to a Pisces ears!
I have been writing, reflecting, dreaming, loving, and getting loved on in profound ways. I’m so thankful for my community pulling up during a deeply challenging and life changing time. To feel so loved, cared for, supported, and seen during one of the most vulnerable and difficult experiences of my life has helped renew my faith in humanity, community, and even myself.
Existing with Endometriosis, Adenomyosis, Fibromyalgia, Fibroids, PMDD, ADHD, Autism, and Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis …. It’s VERY easy to feel discouraged, depressed, down on yourself, and incapable of achieving goals no matter how big or small. My dreams have felt like a light at the end of a tunnel I can’t quite reach yet. But, the “yet” is intentional. This surgery has allowed me the opportunity to jump ahead by way of stillness and healing, to come out further ahead for myself. I’m loving myself more, giving myself more grace, making life changes for the better, and stepping back into my power with a renewed understanding of self.
#Endometriosis #ExcisionSurgery #ChronicIllness #EndoWarrior #Healing
Before we enter April, I want to fully make sure I’m honoring the importance of March being #EndometriosisAwarenessMonth and #WomensHealthAwarenessMonth
I waited over 11 years, pushed for doctors to consider the possibility of a diagnostic surgery, fiercely advocated for myself, endured years of medical ignorance, abuse, and gaslighting all to get my very first excision surgery/official diagnoses, and learn the staging of my endometriosis ALL ON MARCH 20th of this year.
1 in 10 womb bodied folks have Endo, and on average it takes 7-10 years for an official diagnoses. The only way to get diagnosed is to go forward with surgery and have a specialist confirm the findings laparoscopically. There is no cure, and many doctors misunderstand the medical information available around what helps Endo. It’s considered 1 of the top 20 most painful conditions you can have, yet cannot qualify you for disability. (Endo warriors in CA, please inform me otherwise if I am incorrect)
Today marks 11 days post surgery and this is one of the most difficult recoveries I’ve ever faced. While I am in recovery, I have been reflecting on and processing all my years of suffering, dwindling memories of “good days”, missed opportunities, cancelled plans, painful gigs where I slap on a smile, endless pain flares, countless appointments that led nowhere, and overall the gratitude to do what I love in this life through it all via music along with the fierce appreciation I hold for my community loving me unconditionally.
Thank goodness for Griffin & Sabine providing gentle cuddles and keeping an eye on me as well! They have been the unsung heroes of my healing.
#ExcisionSurgery #Endometriosis #EndoWarrior
Complex Endometriosis Excision Surgery Recovery
Thank you to everyone who contributed towards my recovery by way of food/nourishment/quality time/door dash credits. While I’m finding moments to document glimpses of my recovery, and share only some of it, what you don’t see is the difficulty moving, walking, coughing, showering, silent crying, using the bathroom, pain spasms, deep fatigue, bleeding, and processing 11+ years of medical grief and trauma.
I’m feeling truly overcome with gratitude for the outpouring of love and support from my close community. Thank you to all my sisters and brothers coming over, sitting with me, praying over me, and making home cooked meals. My mom stayed with me for 4 nights, caring for me like only a mother can. There has been true heart medicine healing layers of generational trauma, deep rooted grief of not being believed for over a decade, and realizations of just how immeasurably strong and favored I truly am.
Here’s to being an Endo Warrior. Here’s to being soft and feminine. Here’s to allowing courage and vulnerability to lead. Here’s to healing on a level I have dreamed of and worked towards for almost 2 decades.
I wouldn’t be able to navigate such incredible pain if it weren’t for this heating pad @rebrelief designed by a fellow Endo warrior. I even brought it to the hospital for surgery day and the surgeons and nurses all took photos of it and wrote down the name to recommend to patients. Every ounce of relief I can get makes all the difference in the world.
#WomensHealthAwarenessMonth #EndometriosisAwarenessMonth #ExcisionSurgery #EndoWarrior #Healing
The gratitude I hold for my tribe showing up for me has truly provided deeper healing than I expected.
From my sis @reynas_rising driving me to and from surgery, to my other sis @drsaraicrain bringing me flowers and sitting with me making sure I was taking my meds and remained hydrated, to my mom staying two nights with me to provide some tender care, to my sweet sis @angeladedokun being an ultra light beam and tucking me in and making sure I had everything I needed AND bringing me her healing incense she makes by hand that is my absolute favorite, and having @dr.dancan bring me Kangen water to support my recovery. And some bonus points for my guy bringing me @donutsavant for a sweet treat from my favorite shop.
This surgery was quite serious and not something anyone should navigate alone. I’m so thankful my community has shown up for me. God never fails to remind me what is meant for me despite the pain I’m navigating.
#EndometriosisAwareness #ExcisionSurgery #CommunitySupport #Healing #EndoWarrior
PSA on vulnerability, illness, and recovery.
This surgery has been a long time coming. Many of you know I battle Endometriosis, PMDD, Fibromyalgia, and adenomyosis because of how open I am on IG. I have endured over 11 years of suffering, cancelled plans, lost out on work, all while navigating life around many individuals that don’t believe Endometriosis is even a real disease. The fact of the matter is it’s considered 1 of 20 most painful conditions to have, and the pain is comparable to a heart attack or childbirth.
UCSF has a special department just for Endo. And all it took was one appointment for the specialty doctor to see I was in need of surgery. 1 in 9 womb bodied folks suffer from Endo and on average it takes 7-10 years for an official diagnoses.
I can’t even begin to describe the amount of medical abuse, gaslighting, and undermining I’ve endured for 10 + years. I have been told - “it’s just a bad period!” or “birth control can fix it” or the most irresponsible is “just get pregnant, the symptoms will go away!” And the WORST of all “just get a hysterectomy and you be fine!” Meanwhile I’m suffering through a full body disease that only gets worse in time with no existing cure.
My surgery was Friday morning, and I learned I have stage 2 Endometriosis (there are only 4 stages). I have been feeling so much gratitude for how my community has shown up for me and continues to do so while I heal and recover.
Special shout out to @rebrelief for designing the most brilliant heating pad. It really has changed my life and has been tremendously helpful through my recovery.
#EndoWarrior #EndometriosisAwarenessMonth #ExcisionSurgery #WomensHistoryMonth #Healing
Some moments of joy providing proof of life ✨
Traveling and DJing has brought me a great deal of joy and community. And reflecting on that has brought me peace during a very hard time. Today is the 3rd day I’ve been bed ridden, healing from Surgery for Endometriosis, and I am on a travel and gig hiatus until I recover.
Slide 1 - DJing the grand reopening of Huntington Hotel
Slide 2 - Cloisters Atrium
Slide 3 - Cloisters Atrium
Slide 4 - SAA
Slide 5 - Blue Willow
Slide 6 - Late birthday after party
Slide 7 - Chelsea with @msmainh & @ghostinthesketch
Yesterday’s Birthday was a special kind of day. A day filled with love, ease, gentleness, affection, affirmation, sweetness, laughter, delicious food, and remembrance.
I began the day making some buttermilk biscuits and gravy from scratch, baked a cake, picked some fresh flowers, got ready to head to @tacososcar and hug wonderful friends/family. I got to move through the day intentionally, and that was deeply valued.
Thank you to everyone who pulled up, thank you to Taco’s Oscar, thank you to everyone who reached out, thank you to all the online love as well!
2 • 22 • 26 | Solar Return Reflections
This is continued growth.
This is continued healing.
This is intention.
This is shedding.
This is discernment.
This is radical acceptance.
This is standing in my power.
This is understanding my calling.
I’m so thankful for this 38th rotation around the Sun. This last year truly broke me down to new low levels that I wasn’t sure I’d rise above again. I’m so grateful to make it through and to begin to feel some joy again. Here’s to continued growth, better health, tender community, infinite inspiration, safety, love, and honoring our ancestors.
📷 by @brendanchute
🇧🇷 BOSSA NOVA VINYL LISTENING PARTY W/ @marahruby & @couchdate
Not much to say we love this combination - Oakland grown songwriter/singer Mara Hruby & AFRO INDO MARKET couchdate celebrating the sentimentality of love thru vinyl from Brasil 💔
Sunday Feb 15
4pm-7pm
5032 Telegraph Ave Oakland
As always no cover 🏴☠️
📸 of Mara by @brendanchute
🌊✨Gratitude from the last 4 days ✨🌊
Thankful for Peace.
Thankful for Breath.
Thankful for the Ocean.
Thankful for Faith.
Thankful for the Warmth felt.
Thankful for Rest.
Thankful for each Sunrise.
Thankful for each Sunset.
Thankful for the Joy.
Thankful for Stillness.
Thankful for spending time with two absolutely incredible women and one incredible little girl.
Thankful for the best Girls Trip since March in NY.
Thankful for the Magic of Maui.
Thankful for the Medicine the Earth provides.
Thankful for good food.
Thankful for being thankful.
🔉Sound On For A Palette Cleanse & Reset 🔉
Ever since my father passed on New Years Day in 2025, I made a clear and intentional shift to no longer celebrate New Years in Winter, but welcome in my New Year on my birthday just as signs of Spring begin to bloom. I no longer wish people a “Happy New Year” but instead offer hopes of a healthy holiday season spent with peace and compassion for the stillness of Winter.
2025 was the most difficult year of my life. Complex grief, mental health decline , severe physical health issues, relationship challenges, leaving a day job, stepping back from singing to protect my healing process, re-entering singing once I felt ready, working more than I ever have DJing, dealing with a mold infestation in my home, deep isolation, a car accident, and living through the pain of placing new boundaries for my own well being.
I want to thank my close community that have remained present through it all, loving me fiercely and completely, offering softness and love at every step, and cheering me on with gentle encouragement. Lord knows I wouldn’t have survived 2025 without you all. God really blessed me with the most abundant chosen family in this lifetime.
This current trip is first real moment I feel like I can breathe, exist, rest, reset, and feel overflowing joy and promise of the peace to come this year. Thank you @msmainh for being born, being the woman that you are through and through, and allowing me to visit you on Maui to celebrate your life!! 2 days in and I’m already feeling more restored than I ever could have imagined for myself.
Slide 1 • Honokeana Bay
Slide 2 • Kamaole Park
Slide 3 • Kamaole Park
Slide 4 • Kamaole Park
Slide 5 • Kamaole Park
Slide 6 • Kamaole Park
Slide 7 • Ukumehame Coast Sunset
Slide 8 • Monarch Butterfly resting in Honokeana Bay
May the peaceful sound of each video bring you all a sliver of the peace, gratitude, appreciation for life, and value of the natural elements that I feel immense healing through.
