Well I did it! I’ve officially moved to New York!
I am still completely exhausted from packing, driving the trailer, and unpacking into two storage units.
It will be nice to be in one place for the next six months instead of hopping from house sit to house sit as I’ve done since November.
The Omega season is about to begin and I get to move into my cabin soon!!
Excited for new adventures but will def miss my family and friends in GA. I will be back to visit though!!
Just like I did last year, I am going to be disconnecting from social media while I’m at Omega. Definitely Facebook but possibly Instagram too. You can follow me at @lifewithemberlynn on IG if you want to stay connected (if I don’t end up pausing my account).
Or follow my Substack that I will hopefully get back to writing on while I’m here.
I can’t wait to see what the next six months brings!! 🙌🏻❤️🔥
Visit Byron Narrative CineStills Drop 3 🥪
Table Talks In Downtown Byron. We found our favorite spot in the Drugstore Deli for the talents and their stills!
1200x with 8x8 scrim and 600x for other window. Some harsh, some diffused.
Canon C500 mark ii - ShortStache Everyday Polarizer/Diffuser
Director/DP/CAM OP/Edit/Color - Max Moore
Creative Directors - @imnotcreativeenoughforthis_ & Max Moore
Producer/AD - @imnotcreativeenoughforthis_
Gaff/Audio - @bornajosh
Grip/Audio - @_dj_kitch
PA - @anistonkemmerer
On Set Photographer - @stephncook
Absolutely exhausted from driving from New York to Georgia, all my scans yesterday, a million doctor’s appts, and then driving the 2 hours back to my mom’s…but still so grateful I got to lead another session for the Radical Remission workshop tonight!!
And even more grateful that all my scans were clear and I’m still cancer free!!!
Woooo hooooooo!!!! 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻
Three years ago today I was diagnosed with breast cancer and it shook up my life in the best way.
At the time, I was living in Georgia, trying to figure out what I was doing with my life.
Today, I’m living in New York, about to experience my first blizzard (not to be confised with the ones I love from Dairy Queen 🤣).
I spent the morning writing in my journal, reading, and drinking coffee by the fire while watching the snow fall outside.
For the past two months I’ve lived in the Hudson Valley by going from housesit to housesit. I’ll keep doing that until the Omega season begins in May.
Sometimes anxiety hits me because I don’t feel I have a stable base. Other times I’m in awe of my life and how I get to experience so many places and live without paying rent or utilities. It’s wild.
Ultimately, I’ve learned that life doesn’t have to look the way you think it needs to. I’ve been through many versions of myself and what feels like many lifetimes.
This version is just for me. I’m excited to see where I go from here. ❤️🙌🏻🔥
Trigger warning!
When I was little, I was molested by a neighbor.
I used to go to his house and his wife would bake me cookies while he and I visited. I don’t know if she knew. I hope not.
It’s easy for me to still brush it off and say “it’s ok. It doesn’t really impact me.”
But if I look back, I see all the ways it indeed has impacted me.
From feeling sexual earlier than I should’ve. Along with all the shame that came with that.
To saying “yes” when I meant “no.”
To not speaking up when someone came into my bedroom even though I didn’t want to. I stayed silent.
To crying at a gynecological exam as an adult and not knowing why.
To crying after jiu jitsu when I had a strange man between my legs.
To trying to control so many things because otherwise my anxiety gets high and I feel unsafe.
I always feel I can handle things. I can take on so much while I try to protect others from experiencing the same pain.
It hit me the other day that I’ve never felt I was protected. And that makes me really sad. Especially when I look back at a picture like the one above and see how little I was. How my innocence was taken.
I’ve decided I need to protect that little girl. It’s my job. So when I start shaming myself for something or talking to myself in a negative way, I try to remember who I’m really talking to.
I’ve never really written about this stuff but something in me felt compelled to today after seeing Prince Andrew get arrested. It felt like a bit of hope sparked because someone is finally being held accountable for the horrors they’ve committed.
I hope to God our country starts to do the same. We’ve been sweeping this stuff under the rug for too long. And it has to stop.
Not every woman has the tools I’ve had to heal. I also had it much easier I think than a lot of other women. And yet I know I’m still affected so I can only imagine how others are feeling.
My solace is by now Mr. Mac has to be long since dead.
Keep pushing for the truth to come out and for people to be accountable. It’s the only way this kind of thing will eventually stop. I have to believe it will at least.
I’m learning that mid 30’s on a sunny day is still beautiful!
Went for a walk yesterday and totally forgot my coat had a hood till I was like 3/4 of the way back home.
I met a nice woman and we chatted while watching her husband and grand-daughter sled down the hill. I’m going to have to try sledding before all the snow melts!
I’m so lucky to be in Hyde Park for the month! When I moved up to New York I didn’t realize how disorienting it would be to move from house to house. Most of my stuff is in the car since I don’t have a permanent residence.
But I am having the best time! I’ve stayed in really nice homes and can’t believe how different the personalities of all the pets are. I’ve had so much fun getting to know them all.
I accepted the dining hall manager position at Omega so I’ll be moving back to campus in May. Excited for this season!
FREE Radical Remission lnfo session tonight from 6-7 pm!
Come learn about the ten healing factors that helped me boost my immune system and thrive during treatment!
These 10 healing factors helped me:
✨ Boost my energy during treatment
✨ NOT get nauseous or sick during chemo
✨ Reduce hot flashes and brain fog
✨ Learn how to better receive support
✨ Release emotions so I didn’t carry them in my body
✨ Realize what was most important to me and kept me inspired during treatment
Click here to register: /events-workshops
OR if you know all about Radical Remission and want to join my upcoming workshop (begins February 19th) feel free to register at the link above!!!
Fun fact I just realized, I’ll be starting this workshop 3 days before my 3 year cancerversary of when I was first diagnosed. 🤯
I’d say that’s a great way to celebrate!!!
*Throwback photo of me and Aniston when we went Axe Throwing!
Aaaaah!!! I just got my box with six of the books I’ve published so far! I have two more orders that were delayed with the other two coloring books and my updated journal for cancer. But there is something really cool about holding a book in your hand that you created. 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻
Three are lined blank notebooks. One is a manifestation journal with instructions on the Quantum Leap Journaling I love to do. One is my gratitude cancer journal. And the last is a proof of my volume 3 of my Bookish coloring book series! 🔥
All of them can be found on my website listed in my bio.
Me versus the snow! 🤣
I remembered gloves this time but I’m guessing I still didn’t shovel correctly because my back hurts now. 🤣🤷🏻♀️
Luckily the snow was soft! But it was still heavy as anything.
