𝒦𝒶𝓁𝒾 𝒟𝓊𝒶𝓁𝒾𝓉𝓎 𖤓☽

Four years ago, I could barely walk…fainting almost daily and living with severe neurological and autonomic symptoms. I was dealing with POTS, suspected fibromyalgia, and neurological symptoms that led doctors to also consider conditions like MS. At one point, I had abnormal cardiac testing that raised serious concerns, though follow up imaging showed no structural heart disease. I was fainting regularly and struggling to function in everyday life. What helped me begin coming back into my body: • Ketamine assisted therapy for treatment resistant depression + CPTSD • Deep trauma processing and nervous system work • Integrating naturopathic and conventional care • Identifying personal food/environmental triggers that seemed to worsen symptoms • Adjusting my diet based on what my body could tolerate at the time Over time, my symptoms began to shift, especially the fainting and neurological issues and I slowly rebuilt a relationship with my body instead of just trying to survive it. This became less about “getting better” and more about coming back into connection with myself, my body, and movement. I’m deeply grateful to now express that through dance, performance, and creation. Costumes, props, and masks by @kali.duality Cinematography by @kyle_sekai Cover Photography by @2darkjosee Footage from my performance at @erospartybham

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Red Ram performance in the @cabaret.atelier production OBSCURA🔮 Filmed by the amazing @ciphercinematics ✨ (Video has been shortened for IG) Song: Hecate by @amanatimusic Costume and choreography by @kali.duality Produced by @cybeles_spells Venue @newprospecttheatre

At Beltane, I offered the quiet, smaller versions of myself to the fire. The one who swallowed her instincts. The one who made herself smaller to be easier to hold. Heart Throat Then rebirth 🖤 Production: Beltane by @cvnty.coven @gil.pole Venue: @shakedownbham Cinematography: @kyle_sekai Song: Lilith by @hekazumusic Costuming and Headpiece: @kali.duality

I’ve been thinking a lot about the difference between silence and power. This piece started from a place of suppression, guarding your heart and voice to make myself more palatable or “nice”and slowly unraveled into something feral, instinctive, and honest. The exact moment the mask comes off felt less like performance and more like remembering myself🌻🖤✨ “Lilith” by @hekazumusic @cvnty.coven by @gil.pole at @shakedownbham ✨ Cinematography by @kyle_sekai Gold antlers/headpiece handmade by @kali.duality

When @qveenherby liked this video on TikTok🫶🏼🖤Quick clips of the process making my three faced red Hecate mask✨ Cover photo by @2darkjosee

This was the very first costume I ever created. The first solo piece I ever choreographed. And my first burlesque performance. ✨ I began completely hidden beneath the gold wings: guarded, protected, small. And throughout the performance, I slowly unfolded. Learning how to move freely. Learning how to take up space. Learning how to be seen. For a long time, hiding felt safer. Like many women, I grew up learning very early that being visible in my body could invite danger, violation, fear, or unwanted attention. So I became smaller. More guarded. More disconnected from my body and my expression. This piece was one of the first times I allowed myself to move differently. Burlesque became so much more to me than performance. It became reclamation. A return to my voice, my sensuality, my creativity, and my autonomy over my own body. And that changed my life. ✨ Cover photograph by @ravenswood.boudoir

To everyone new here, hi and thank you for being here🤍 Over the past few weeks, I’ve started sharing more than just my dance and creative work. I’ve started sharing pieces of my story. For a long time, I was chronically and debilitatingly sick. From my early 20s into my 30s, my life became smaller and smaller. I lost connection to movement, creativity, joy, my body, and honestly, parts of my spirit too. I wasn’t just physically exhausted, I felt disconnected from my soul. Healing was not linear, and it definitely wasn’t one magic answer. It was layered and it meant searching for root causes instead of only masking symptoms. It meant alternative medicine, therapy, nervous system work, trauma processing, learning how to actually feel emotions I had buried for years, and slowly rebuilding trust with my own body. And in that process, I found my way back to dance. Back to creativity. Back to myself. The version of me you see now was built slowly and intentionally over the last few years through choosing my health, choosing my creativity, choosing expression, choosing autonomy over my own time and energy, and learning how to trust my own voice again. Dance became more than movement for me. It became reclamation. My costume designs became a way to embody that reclamation and shape shift into the dual parts of me. Light and dark. I don’t share any of this because I think my path is the answer for everyone. But if sharing it helps even one person feel less alone, less hopeless, or more connected to themselves, then it’s worth sharing. Thank you to everyone who has been here for years, and thank you to everyone new who found their way here recently. I’m really grateful you’re here. 🤍

Keep choosing yourself and saying yes to things that feel aligned even when maybe you don’t see the results yet in your physical reality 🖤

A few days after a traumatic event where I was trapped in a car with a drunk driver, unable to get out, unable to call for help, completely frozen my heart rate suddenly spiked to 180 bpm and I started fainting from there on. Around the same time, I also got influenza A… and my system never fully regulated again. I was eventually diagnosed with POTS, and spent years trying medications that either didn’t work or created more issues. At one point, I asked a neurologist if that traumatic experience could have contributed to what was happening in my body. I was told no. But something in me didn’t agree. And I’m really glad I listened to that. Because more and more, we’re seeing connections between nervous system dysregulation, trauma, chronic stress, and viral illness. I’m not saying that’s the case for everyone with POTS, but it was part of my story. What shifted things for me wasn’t another medication, it was finally supporting my nervous system. I started somatic therapy, but at first I couldn’t access any of the emotions. My body was in such a deep protective state. Eventually, I did ketamine assisted therapy, and for the first time, my body was able to process what it had been holding. I can’t fully put that experience into words, but I can say this: My body was never working against me. It was trying to protect me. And when I started working with my body instead of fighting it, things began to shift. Living with chronic illness can create so much resentment toward your body. But for me, healing started when I began to see my symptoms as signals and not as failures. I’m sharing this because I know so many of you are navigating POTS and nervous system issues in your own way. Your story might look different than mine. But if you’ve ever felt like something triggered the start of it all… your intuition is worth listening to. 🖤

Reminder to seek out your authentic movement and expression in dance. Choreography classes are amazing, but finding and discovering what type of movement and expression feels the most like YOU is such a fun journey. And evolving through that🖤✨

VEIL OF SECRETS @cabaret.atelier May 1st & 2nd • 6:30 & 9PM New Prospect Theatre What lies beyond the veil? Veil of Secrets blends ritual theatre with burlesque and dance in a story that explores what happens when we dare to cross into the unknown. Expect bold performances and a journey of transformation. Featuring emerging performers from our NOVA performance track alongside Cabaret Atelier instructors in downtown Bellingham, WA. Tickets are linked in my bio. #bellingham #bellinghamartist #bellinghamdance