The Hidden Risks of America’s Most Popular Prescription Painkiller. 
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Lying with his eyes closed in a dark room in his childhood home, John remained still as his wife Lauren carefully opened the heavy curtains just slightly before gently laying down beside him. She whispered so quietly I could not hear her. The room stayed almost entirely silent, filled with a painful, deeply lonely, and exhausted energy. At times, tears quietly rolled down John’s face as he remained still in the dark.
In 2023, after returning from a golf trip and dead lifting at the gym, John Avery felt a pop in his lower back. A slipped disc was pressing on a nerve. After months of physical therapy, rest, and steroids, he was prescribed Gabapentin by a pain management specialist, who told him it could help calm the nerve pain and was “nonaddictive,” Avery recalled.
The former high school physical education teacher said that after stopping the medication following surgery, he experienced severe withdrawal symptoms that dramatically altered his life. He now stays at his mother’s house where he grew up, inside a room with blacked out windows, separated from his young children because light, sound, and even touch have become so painful and overwhelming. He’s lost an incredible amount of weight and struggles with shaking, muscle spasms, burning sensations throughout his body, and severe insomnia.
At one point, he whispered something to his wife, and she explained that he wanted to remove his shirt to show how much the illness had affected him physically. It was an incredibly vulnerable moment, but it also felt connected to the desperation of living with a mysterious reaction that doctors still have few answers for, and the hope that someone else might recognize what he is going through or know how to help.

Story written by Julie Wernau and link in the bio.
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