“sometimes theres a pulsing that reaches my fingertips and toes” (2026)
text on video, TV & projection.
Lately I have been unfulfilled in the pursuit of a career in fashion. Circulating thoughts on legacy, connection, and social ladders build tension within me, causing physical deterioration and great anxiety.
But why the pursuit when I’ve already figured it out?
The meaning of life is to love.
Situated in
@emergingartists_collective ‘s After Dark Runway afterparty was my site responsive installation based on this concept. The work is a thought transcript relying only on word and pacing to weight the room. The attempt is to converse with the crowd of emerging artists, fashion designers, wannabe models, via an atmospheric, emotionally vulnerable experience.
Installed in various parts of the room, I thought the video(s) would act as the elephant in the afterparty; a silent truth that would’ve resonated with almost all the attendees. What happened instead was a great irony - a work that cries out specifically to the people it wants attention, validation, connection from, was pushed around, snubbed, or deemed worthy of a glance by very few in a space where everyone is thinking of themselves.
I saw a model physically pick up one of my projections and put it to the side because it was in the way of her photo op. (Who doesnt want a great picture of themselves smoking?) This extension of myself that I thought would move my peers was instead an obstruction to be moved.
When prompted with vulnerability, there was no dialogue. I swirl in the pursuit, making sure I’m spit out on love’s exit. Their pursuits were networking and a posed photo. The conversation was one-sided.
The installation, in a room DEDICATED to its existence, asks, “I don’t feel worthy, and why do I have to? Why do I feel excluded?”, was deemed unworthy and excluded.
It was very interesting for me to create a site-responsive work, only for the site to not reply.
Thanks to Kat for the having me, your support for small artists is unparelleled. Congratulations on this being EAC’s 10th show; so few could achieve this in just a few years. Your dedication is seen by all in this community.