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I drew a lot last year for storyboarding and illustration overlays. Here are some of my faves!

2025 is a year

Some selfies 2021-2024. First slide is me pepping myself up before entering a job. I wish I could turn back time and tell this bb to slow down, go chill and get checked by the doctor. In Feb 2021, I had the most unusual day that it became a core memory. My life has never moved the same way since. Turns out that that day was my ultimate estrogen crash, which started my mid-perimenopause journey. I’ve been going thru perimenopause and didn’t know until a couple of months ago. I didn’t want to admit how exhausted I was from every acceptance of projects and jobs cause I really wanted to do them. There was so much life to support, capture, create, explore and experience. I am not ready to be a full homebody. I hated that my capacity kept going down every year, and more so this year. Currently, I am only 1 month away from being considered post-menopausal, which is so crazy. Turns out that I have Fragile X, a gene that induces early menopause for women. I’m only 35 and I didn’t realize that I have been operating in half power mode. That every intensity of the physical and mental exhaustion after every project was not normal. That my muscles losing strength after just a week of no activity isn’t just in my head. That my depression and spirals are symptoms of not eating enough protein. That my sudden lack of cognitive resilience is part of the cognitive decline when estrogen drops from one’s system. My sudden terrible memory recall for words, events, names. Not realizing that my 5am sleep schedule is actually a perimenopause induced insomnia. That I should be eating 2x more protein to feel baseline normal, that I actually needed more rest with the way that I’ve treated my body and mind. I definitely pushed my body to its limits. Data says that early menopause (before 40y.o) only happens to 1% of women, but based on the amount of response that I’ve received from friends and acquaintances, this happens more normal than current science understands, and all the doctors that I’ve talked to agree. There isn’t enough research on women’s reproductive health and it’s been a taboo to talk about this. (contd.)

New episode up++ Link in bio 📻 Art by @headhunt Once again it is our fall fund drive and this go-round I was joined in person by fellow WRIR tastemaker and videographer Headhunt! Their sets (in italics) prioritize texture AND the dance floor, with a focus on good grooves and Filipino producers (including @anitosoul , who had a guest mix earlier this year). There's also a lot more goofing off than what makes most Panoramics. At one point Freddie J of @banji_kaicho and Tokyo Melody stopped by to hang out. I just want to say thank you to everyone who's signal boosted this show over the years. I don't ask a whole hell of a lot, but if this show or community radio matter to you, please drop a tip into the jar of wrir.org. Without you, there's no station. FM radio forever. Thank you to Headhunt, and all the artists featured for their time and work. *Outtakes from @nakama.wtf curation from last episode ** FCC Clean your tracks, kids *** May have misspoke on air and said "Watersnake" instead of "Waterdancer." Was thinking about the song and the [excellent] album ("a metal snake") at the same time. Hat tip to @merkeba_ . ^Talk beds, not every talk bed is listed.

All the pretty summer things

Took some portraits of my friend @m0chahim3 for Black Fae Day. We’ve collaborated in so many ways throughout the years, and I’m really glad we keep finding new ways to make things together 🧚‍♂️✨

So many things to be grateful for! For all of the opportunities to learn and grow, for being surrounded by wonderful ppl, for the beautiful art and expression that comes out of this nonsensical world 🌬️🍃 Prioritizing self preservation to fuel the strength to combat the chaos. I’m grateful for this little corner of the world 💐

L8ly

Dance and bop to 80s dance classics tonight! 🪩 I’ll be DJing @holyshitfest 80s Prom w/ @tommy2600_ & @intellectualrebelmusic @ @ragandbonesrva . So stoked! I got 4 New Order songs lined up so get dressed!

Finally explored this magical place! The tunnel is a mile long and we went back and forth, mostly in the dark, and it was a trippy experience.

The past 3 months vol.1

Super excited to announce that @aerodaavatar and I’s collab made it into @nwfilmforum 's Cadence Poetry Film Festival- A Tune To Contain All Your Revolt program! Much much gratitude to @justaskabaska for applying to the fest for me!🌹💕 I still am in shock that we made it in!! 😱 This poetry festival is hybrid and available online from 4/27-5/7. If you’re in the Seattle area u can check out the fest in person w/ their in-person programs and panels! Please watch this showcase! "These works exist to rise up, to turn against, to express rage, to make seen through planting seeds, through imagination, through joy, through poetry." Link in my bio! Our video poetry wouldn’t be possible w/o @eta.rva ’s sponsorship and for @realrichkeem & @justaskabaska for keeping on believing in us! THANK YOU THANK YOU!!🌹💐 Graffiti locations made by @chrisvisions , sound collage by @straw_______ & music by @michaelmillions ! Much love y’all! PEACE!