Grief and disappointment can make it feel like you’re permanently behind everyone else, especially when you feel like you had to learn how to motivate yourself without that foundation.
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📸 : @deadlyfilm
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REN the Third at @losglobos
May 8th, 2026
Los Angeles, CA
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Shot on Canon Eos R6 Mark III
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Grateful to call this my full time job. Shooting, editing, creating, telling stories.
These are from our Toast to Santa Monica event. I tried to keep the edits under 100 but ended up with 150, and this was actually the least I’ve ever shot at an event. No full memory cards, two cameras, just being present. I even got to shoot alongside one of my MVG kids which made it that much more special.
This one felt like our Super Bowl. Doesn’t get bigger than this for us. I got to connect with donors and sponsors, have real conversations, and even open doors for future work with their teams.
I can feel myself taking the right steps, but the battle in my mind is still there. Some days I lose. Then I create and for a moment it all quiets down. That feeling never lasts as long as I want it to, but the fact that it exists at all reminds me there’s more to keep going for.
Watching these kids grow up is the part that hits the hardest. Some are heading off to college, moving on from the club. They’re not my kids, but I feel it. I’m proud of them. Proud I got to be a small part of their story.
This one meant everything to me.
“Pressure doesn’t change people, it reveals them.”
April tested me.
I’ve been moving different lately, stepping into spaces I didn’t expect and balancing everything in a way that’s not always clean. Our big event is this Friday and it’s strange, I don’t feel that usual urgency. Maybe it’s confidence. Maybe I’m just tired. Either way, I know the work is gonna speak for itself.
The kids been calling me a traitor not seeing them like before… that part hits. I miss them. I hope they know that.
Money has been tight this month, just saving and handling what needs to be handled. No extras. But it’s setting something up. Got trips lined up later this year and finally starting to see Santa Monica apartment listings pop up. That next chapter is getting real.
Creatively, I feel the shift. Concert photography has been on my mind. Appreciation to Kanoa and Hippie HxA for trusting me with their vision. Seeing my work used for marketing and covers is still crazy to me. Been reaching out to more artists too, we’ll see what doors open.
I worked for this. I built something out of nothing. I made myself necessary.
And if it ever gets taken away, I’ll build it again.
Always learning, sometimes teaching.
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Shot on Canon Eos R6 Mark III
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I should’ve told them that I know better
But now l’ll show them that I’m no quitter.
I still care about this work because it gave me a chance to do what I love and get paid for it That matters to me But caring doesn’t mean staying quiet
There’s always talk about hierarchy I’ve always been impressed by pyramids but just because one rock sits on top of another doesn’t make it a better rock
We talked about avoiding bottlenecks at check in We planned for it and put the work in I’ve seen what happens when people are trusted to do their job Things flow Things get done
But when communication gets filtered and decisions come without listening it creates the very thing we tried to avoid
Leadership isn’t about position it’s about how things actually run and how people are treated in the process
I’ll stay in my lane and keep moving forward You’ll see the results for yourself soon
Haven
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I have a hard time posting photo of things I’m not good at but I want to be more involved in the music/concert scene.
Here’s some photos of @ovsulfur
After seeing their performance, I instantly became a fan.
Hope to see them again
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Shot on Canon Eos R6 Mark III
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@nikitagoesracing in qualifiers! Long Beach Grand Prix
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Shot on Canon Eos R6 Mark III
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Learning more about events like @typesauto Night lights has pulled me deeper into car culture. Being around these cars whether they are driving by or just parked brings me back to that feeling I had as a kid, just being in awe of everything.
I want to be more involved in car events and races moving forward, but for now I’m just happy to be there, capturing moments and taking it all in.
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Shot on Canon Eos R6 Mark III
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#haven #teamcanon #photography #photographer #cars