One day after Motherās Day.
I was alone yesterday. mostly forgetting it was Motherās Day. When I remembered, I felt a sense of peace. Happiness even. For the first time, Motherās Day was strangely beautiful.
Mom, who you now know as Faith, died more than 42 years ago. Navigating Motherās Day was fraught, year in and year out. Since SM came on the scene, I try to stay away on Motherās Day. Grateful for the few that would post in acknowledgement of how painful Motherās Day is for some of us. Iād feel so seen!
This year, I feel good. Iām still in shock and Iām proud of myself for creating Faith, The Gift, putting the perfect ensemble together for it and making sure Faith, The Gift happened. What I didnāt know was creating and performing Faith, The Gift would almost make my Mom alive again. Those days of creation, speaking about her with the band and having conversations with many audience members who now knew her name and a little about Faith Evangeline Susannah Victor. Emotionally tough, yes. Phew. Yāall, Iāve never done anything more personal, sensitive and vulnerable in my life. For real. It was HARD.
Deeply cleansing and cathartic too, though. I can now speak freely about my Mom as if she was right here. I had no idea that this sense of connection to my Mom could be a by-product of creating Faith, The Gift. It feels incredible.
Yesterday, my Mom felt like she was right here. Who knew? Grateful for this vibration. Grateful for the ability to make things I believe in.
Sharing amazing images here by
@meredithtraux , who did a wonderful job of creating visuals for Faith, The Gift and capturing many moments in real time as well. Will share video soon. Thank you again to the
@thejazzgallery and the George Wein Foundation for your generous support, making Faith, The Gift a living reality.
Faith, The Gift will be at Roulette on March 17, 2027. Much more on that soon.
Much love to you all.
FV - voice/composer
@rebekahfawn - conductor
@blackearthmuse - flutes
@ehrlich_marty - clarinets
@chris_ryanwilliams - trumpet
@jenbakertrombone - trombone
@angelicasanchezpianomusic -
@cellisita - cello
@sean_conly - double bass
#ReggieNicholson - drums