quantum physics
an audio and video self study (feb.-apr. 26)
i’ve been experiencing depressive episodes and anxiety for the past twenty years of my life. my last episode lastet eight, very intense weeks. combined with some events in my private life it got as bad as it hadn’t been in years and i’ve felt so very distant from myself. i finally managed to get into therapy and it feels good. things are slowly starting to change for the better.
i never had the urge to portray such personal thoughts and experiences aside from writing them in my notes app and reading my little poems and stories to the people that i love. but this felt different. it evolved organically. just like it wanted to be a bigger idea. for a moment i wasn’t sure if i ever wanted to show this. but i am somewhat proud. of having made it through this again and having asked for the help that i deserve, that anyone deserves. and i’m proud of doing something that i am so deeply scared of: making myself vulnerable.
we don’t live on the dark side of the moon. we just visit it from time to time. and there are always things that can pull us closer to the sun again.
you are never alone.
i promise. i promise. i promise.
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guys did you know i look like this? lol me neither.
in december @janaabel_ invited me to her studio to take some pics of me. i was so nervous and excited, and usually i feel kinda weird in front of the camera. but jana made it all feel incredibly easy. and i’m in love with the results 🫂
cover & tour poster for @jas_tbm
we met for coffee in december, a few days before christmas. in february we shot some pics at oskar’s studio. in march i spent a tuesday afternoon ripping the photos apart, playfully arranging them, remembering how much i love a loooot of white space and working with my hands and real materials.
creative direction @browsky.zip and me 🤝🏼
mgmt: @corner.companyy
@soffiemusic - dass ich gerade traurig bin 🥺
stills and snippets from the music video we shot in portugal a couple of weeks ago. we had the best time, only love for the team 💖
@chiaranoemii@soffiemusic
camera/cut/grading: me