Thursday May 21st the Burn Pit opens again for free with the best roasters in Utah. Come watch the jokes and feel the burn. Who will be the Alpha. @tonybruhnofficial@wolfdog_brewing #sandyutah #utahcomedy #burnpit #veteranowned
I apologize to my friends—this isn’t a happy recap. 2025 is not a year I have energy to repeat.
Yes, there were accomplishments I’m deeply proud of—especially in comedy and climbing. But most of my energy went into finally facing what my body had been storing after many compounded years of running from it.
This isn’t a disclosure of traumatic details. It’s an ode to those who take it upon themselves to sift through the layers we’re wrapped in.
2025 began with me chasing elusive medical issues—appointments ending with the word psychosomatic. I thought it was from secondary trauma, that I’d absorbed too many others’ stories. It was far more unsettling to realize the recurring panic attacks were rooted in my own small life.
There are gaps in my memory, and more in my understanding. I’m learning to shift my focus from reconstructing what happened to witnessing the impact of what chronic abuse leaves behind. As my therapist reminds me: recalling exact details doesn’t matter—your body is telling you now how bad it was.
cPTSD doesn’t come with a recovery plan or roadmap. Moments where I can breathe freely feel brief after hours of unpacking whatever keeps me braced for danger.
When the fear becomes stifling, I talk to myself—and sometimes I film it. Seeing my own face reminds me I exist; it keeps me grounded until I remember I’m alive. It may look unhinged, but it’s one therapy that works.
This is an ode to those who are healing. Some clips show me crying, hyperventilating, struggling. They aren’t meant to offload pain or ask for witnessing—this is an honest record of my 2025.
The insights and clarity that come from this—the pieces that might actually help someone—will be separated and shared intentionally, in words. I don’t rewatch the videos. The work isn’t reliving the horrors; it’s inviting them out to see them and tell each goodbye, then being sure to untie and unfetter from their wake.
To those who knew, or suspected—thank you for holding me with patience and sincerity. For being my lighthouses and safe places. For staying when I didn’t yet have words, and for telling me you’ll be there when I can. I’ll be healing others alongside you soon #cptsdrecovery
I’m very nearsighted—have to wear glasses for work/driving. I don’t wear them for hiking. So if something in Utah’s landscape catches my eye, it has to be pretty significant.
I don’t always know why; I just take the photo. The other day I went through some of them—most unfocused and blurry—but the ones in focus were so rewarding 😊
These are the moments that get clearer later, once I’m home. Love this state.
It’s so warm. And yet inside, I still feel so cold.
@ellynnewcomb
Upcoming Comedy Church Shows:
- 12/7 - Wiseguys SLC, UT
- 12/14 - Federal Theatre Denver, CO
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Another one 😲 this henna piece of a persimmon branch went from shoulder → ribs → hip. I caught the artist in the act…judging by that grin kinda wondering if I should be charging her for how much fun she’s having #henna #ArtInMotion #hennadesign
Don’t miss an all new lineup of local comics battling to stage time on Comedy Rumble this Saturday! #standupcomedy #wiseguyscomedy #standup #comedy #wiseguys #slcnightlife #slc #comedyrumble #utah #thefreshkingbenjamin
