hi i was going to do a usual story post for dis because i barely do feed classes post i take since im shy and sometimes i feel that i didn't do "good enough" for it to be "social media accepted" aka a perfect run where i don't mess up at all, but this year im trying to embrace my humanity in dance as i do in every other aspect of my life as i tend to be overly critical of myself post groups
anywaysssss this is was my first class back since dislocating my shoulder (slide 2) (no i do not count intensive bc that was not by choice LMAO ily sptb 🥸). i was late because i woke up from a nap at mf 5:20 pm and had to catch up and honestly this piece hurt my lower back so bad but overall it felt yummy and ooey gooey in my body. there are lot of moves i would have not been able to feel comfy in 5 years ago and thats growth i will take.
dancing post injury is an experience that is really tough because not that many people talk about this time period, you really only hear about the injury and then all of a sudden the person is healed and back at it again. i am definitely not back at it again 100% im maybe 80% there and it just feels good to not be held back physically anymore.
now it's the mental. i have been mentally fighting this idea of being held back because i was injured and watching everyone around me continuing to train has been very hard to not think that i am falling behind. but the reality i have to accept is that my injury is not a setback, but an opportunity to listen to my body and build up my strength again. ive failed to recognize this in the past.
i'm terrified to get hurt again in fact during the second class i took yesterday i felt something in my shoulder and it was definitely because i did not warm up my shoulders as much as i should have (smh another reminder warming up is soso important)
im feeling a lil sore, but grateful i can move freely (with caution). i hope to get back into heels training, aim to take at least 1 pole & vogue class, and freestyle again (^:
being a mover means being an artist with the usual life blocks but it's cool to have this outlet to begin with
dc: @alyssamcorpuz
song: sweeeet by @amaarae
studio: @ononestudios
's last day as 24 in 2025 • december 17, 2025
24 was EPIC!!! i went from teaching my first class at on one to getting my first car, ayuna to directing/creating my first choreo-heels-chair set to traveling around asia with my coords to actually finally enjoying my 9-5 to jersey travels four times throughout the year to making new friends & building my cali community to falling in love again 💐✨🌄🪨💓🌿🌏 (^:
all, an absolute privilege. i really don't know how reaching the first quarter of my life will top that, so for now in case it wasn't obvious,,,, I'M 25 EVERYONE!!!!!
thank you for the annual birthday shoot @isolyssa <3
10/03-10/18: EVERYTHING & NOTHING 🌌🪞⛲️💫
experimenting w how i share,,, this fall szn brings new routines, new people & new vibez. i feel like im doing everything & nothing at all, going with the ebbs & flows .
9/23 kitchen
wanted to keep track of my freestyling progress, so i went for it and chose a song and let's just say i found my inner lover again 💟💐✨
been feeling v emotional and vulnerable as of the late however all due to a good reason,,, with finally being back from the sep traveling, trying to connect & ground myself w the great parts of my life, starting with dance per usual. my intention for this sesh was channeling my heightened emotions and process how i be feELiNG *big happy sigh*
hope u enjoy and feel what i feel too (,:
📍 @cmnunitystudio
📹 @alyssamcorpuz
🎶 telepatía // acoustic - kali uchis
9/4-9/8: LOVE WINS!!! 💍🥟🗽🧋🍃💌
i went to a wonderful wedding in jersey city & cried bc destined love is so cool to witness and celebrate + did a chinatown nyc day trip with the fam, we ate hella food and walked over 14,000 steps + stayed up for my 6am EST flight, bonding w new ppl + had the most scrumptious cinnamon roll and heart-to-hearts in santa cruz
simply: live, love, laugh <3
8/28-9/1: IN MY ERA 🌟🤸♂️🎊⛰️🌌
- 3rd snackpack intensive
- yappin in the park with indian food + no utensils
- 2nd sptb auditions with my ate's <3
- celebratory brunch w some of my chosen fam
- mike's bday festivities
- first views at pinnacles national park
life is kool i guess (,:
[returning to my digital diary series !!! before ca, i used to post so much and now im just trying to record my life as i go <3]
a slightly thoughtless chosen photo dump. i have way too many photos to catch up on since moving to the bay .... it's been over a year now ....
life is so freaking crazy CRAZY,,,,,, i will most likely do photo dumps of my past travels in the last 4 months + many other tings i would like to highlight but for now here's a lil appreciation post
i have so much love for my life right now and how it's been with the home i've created. reminiscing on the past and excited for this second year in the bay all while listening to HEARTS SOLD SEPARATELY
i enter this next year with intention and gratitude and infectious energy, despite the uncertainty in my future. i've met so many people that truly hold a special place in my heart and i never thought they would all be 2500+ miles away from where i grew up
life just becomes so much bigger when you take a fckin chance and say FUCK IT what do i have to lose,,, maybe myself but i know ill find my way back again and i did and only found a better version i love deeply
3 years. it was not long ago. i relive the moment i last saw you in person, dropping me off at ewr for my first summer in california. i relive that every time im at ewr. will i ever forget how you took pictures of me as i pulled my luggages to alaska airlines? will i ever forget how happy you were when you saw how happy i was here on our facetime calls? i don't know. i hope i never do.
loss of a loved one. something that we will experience at one point of our life. it's so unfair that the universe decided to choose me when i was 21. now almost 25 and a day does not pass when i feel like i just lost him.
my grief has shaped me in ways i wish it did not. it's made me avoidant in friendships. it's made me compartmentalize so many internal emotions i used to be open about. it's made me scared of death, terrified for the next loss.
grief also shaped me in ways i love. it's pushed me to leave a home and find another home. it's forced me to truly live in the present because tomorrow is NOT promised. it's made me want to share the love i have to offer.
i love you dad, for so many reasons that you will never know
july 16, 2024
i have so much love for you. thank you for taking a chance and leaving new jersey. the tears and fear was worth facing. the peace and joy i have now is special.
i never would have known i found my most comfort in the most uncomfortable decision
