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My cat died and I’m really, really sad about it. It all happened within just hours of me waking up yesterday. I had this feeling when I noticed her breathing wasn’t normal that this might be it and our time together is over. The whole vet team at our local cat clinic were so gentle with her in the final moments. I’m so happy my kitty didn’t have to suffer and we could say goodbye. I told myself she looks like she’s in a comfy deep sleep… but really, I know she will torment my dad in the beyond.. Oh, Kitty… such a queen diva yet scared cuddle bug at the same time. I always thought she was more dog than cat cause of her love for receiving pets and human friendliness but it really was just cause she loved being the center of attention. Everyone who’s ever met ms. kitty knows how charming and spicy she was. A cute lil low rider with lil white boots and gloves. Icon ✨Thru all our apartment moves, holidays, parties, backyard hangs,and one epic road trip, we had some incredible years together. I’m so grateful to @hannahwhatevah for letting Kitty become a permanent part of my life seven years ago. No matter how much life would suck on any given day, I’d have my Kitty to come home to. Everyday I’d tell “Kitty is the best kitty in the world”. Facts. I hate not waking up to her loafing on my chest. But sometimes it felt suffocation by snuggles. It’s too quiet now. I genuinely don’t know how I got up this morning without her screaming and tapping on my face to feed her. I even reached over looking for her but it was just a pillow with a bunch of her fur on it. She stole my chiropractor pillow. Is it weird that I don’t want to wash it? I will but not right now. No one tells you that saying goodbye to your adulthood pets sucks worse than your childhood ones. I loved her so much. I’ll miss you Kitty baby.

Here are some photos I took for the exhibition “A Child’s View from Gaza”. Located at the Adobe Books & Arts Cooperative ( @adobebookshop ). I cannot stress how vital it is to continue to speak up for the liberation of Palestine and get organized in whatever speaks to you. Whether that be thru your art, community outreach, education, list goes on. Palestinian liberation is liberation for us all. 🇵🇸 Please join Artists Against Apartheid Bay Area ( @againstapartheid.art ) for a closing reception of “A Child’s View from Gaza,” an exhibition amplifying Palestinian children’s art in dialogue with works from Bay Area artists and youth. 🗓️Sunday July 6, 2025 / 2-5 PM 📍3130 24th St, San Francisco (Adobe Books & Artists Cooperative) The event will feature political grounding, poetry, live revolutionary jazz music and education from Colors Collective, art activities for all ages, Palestinian crafts, and refreshments provided by Reem’s 🇵🇸 Recommended $5-30 sliding scale donation at the door. No one will be turned away for lack of funds. All proceeds will go to Middle East Children’s Alliance’s critical work in Gaza.

During the last week of my living in San Fran, I made it my only task to take walks everyday and have at least one camera with me. I took a lot of bad photos but some managed to turn out okay. It was raining all day and night when I took these. A miracle I didn’t get sick from wondering in the rain for so long.. I had a lot on my mind.

Photography was one of the few ways for me to escape, mentally and physically, from watching my papa slowly die. Over a month’s worth of photos and I could not bring myself to share hardly any of them (until now). I did not want to be reminded of what you don’t see.. Being near any kind of water calms me so I spent lots of time walking up and down the coast lines, feet dipped in the ocean or sitting on boulder holding my legs close, crying. Hoping in the moments he’d die already so we both be put out of misery. I say that with no guilt, then or now. He’d been in so much pain for years, and it’s finally over. My grief is just the love for my papa with no place to go. If you’ve lost someone, I am so sorry. It fucking sucks. Let’s hope we find a place to put said love.

Every year I somehow manage to manifest a trip to NYC and every year I get asked by my friends there why I haven’t moved there already. In this moment, I legit can’t think of a reason not to besides that I can’t afford it. So for now, it’s yearly trips to my manic dreamland until it’s home. _______________________________________________________ #hasselblad #film #500cm #nycviews #nyc

Three weeks ago, I had the honor of watching my two friends @laineystrange and @johntereick get married. It was no doubt the most beautiful, perfect celebration of love I have ever witnessed. I could not be more happy for you both and I am so thankful to be apart of your lives. Love you always 💕 All taken on film with my Hassie 💖

The faces this baby makes 🤣 love you all forever ❤️ especially you Arlo 🫶🏼 📷: Hasselblad 500 c/m 🎞️: CineStill 400D Development & Scans by @bellowsfilmlab ____________________________________________________ #hasselblad #mediumformat #120film #cinestill400d #film #filmphotography #filmisnotdead #shootmorefilm #baby #love #queerphotographer

When you bring your non waterproof camera cuz it has the zoom you need. Don’t care if these aren’t “perfect”. These results are magical and @weyesblood is giving angelic mother ✨ _____________________________________________________ #film #35mm #pitchforkmusicfestival #loadfilm #filmwave #shootfilm #pointandshootcamera #rollei #thedaily35mm #filmgrain #filmphotography #filmisnotdead #chicago #queerphotographer

You’re gonna see lots of photos of this baby named Arlo who is not mine but I will absolutely positively make them obsessed with corgis and lord of the rings. _______________________________________________________ #film #candid #stud #hasselblad #500cmhasselblad #kodak #filmisbetter #shootfilm #newfamilymember #filmfeed #queerphotographer

Just a they/them wearing their emotions like a true Pisces ♓️ Taken by the very talented and my new friend @jerrycaptures at the @thedarkroomlab @beersandcameras meetup last weekend. Thank you so much!! 🖤🩶🤍❤️

In honor of starting up my garden for the 23’ season, here’s a shot I took of my darling beauty from last year. I grew & harvested cherry tomatoes, eggplant , coriander, bell peppers, basil. And that’s just what’s seen in the photo! 😂 The other garden bed belongs to my downstairs neighbor (thou I wish it was mine so I could grow even more of my favorites). We’re trying so new things this year so wish me a bountiful harvest 💚