mollie adler

relections on autonomous complexes and the negative animus

ask me about ritual technology. @moods.codex is coming. a new era of inner work. the waitlist is live [[link in my bio.]] photo by @belllayaga 🕯️

[SOUND ON] Since 2021, Back from the Borderline has been a journey of uncovering the roots of our suffering and reconnecting with the parts of ourselves we thought were lost forever. With listeners in over 130 countries and consistently ranking in the top 5-10% of podcasts worldwide, this community has grown into something extraordinary—and it’s just the beginning.   Imagine if your most painful and debilitating mental health symptoms and self-sabotaging behaviors aren’t evidence of ‘disorder’ or ‘dysfunction’, but adaptive strategies that once kept you safe. My goal is to help you shift from asking ‘What’s wrong with me?’ to ‘What happened to me?’   The word ‘borderline’ in this podcast has nothing to do with psychiatric labels. Everyone has found themselves on the edge, in that liminal space where the old self falls apart and the new Self emerges.   In an era where mental health and spirituality are too often commercialized, I’m not here as a guru with a quick fix to sell you. I don’t believe anyone is ever truly ‘healed’ or ‘cured.’ There is no return to some mythical state of pre-trauma purity, but rather a continuous spiral of unbecoming, unlearning, and transformation. As a fellow seeker, I will be there in your ear, walking alongside you on your path toward wholeness as a sort of parasocial big sister. That, I *can* promise.    By integrating the concepts we explore together, you’ll begin to see that anyone—even you—can come back from the borderline.   Start your journey today.   Search “Back from the Borderline” on your favorite podcast player or click the link in my bio to dive in. Follow for new episodes every Tuesday and Thursday, and for those ready to go deeper, explore exclusive premium content on Patreon.   What if this is the sign you’ve been waiting for? [[ podcast cover design artwork by @belllayaga ]]

For I am I: ergo, the truth of myself; my own sphinx, conflict, chaos, vortex—asymmetric to all rhythms, oblique to all paths. I am the prism between black and white: mine own unison in duality. — Austin Osman Spare

the lesson? discernment.

on the podcast this week, we’re talking about who gets to define what’s sane and what isn’t, and why that should matter to you. ep is live now. and as always, you can take any realizations as you listen directly into @moods.codex 🪞

who gets to define reality?

Coming up this week on the podcast: an exploration of madness & sanity as well as an exploration of the recent “disclosure” documents. Follow Back from the Borderline on your favorite player. Link is also in the bio. You know the drill. 🪞And as always, take those realizations right into @moods.codex

throwing this into the void of instagram because today’s big disclosure dump had me feeling some type of WAY. posting and writing this with one eye squinted into the dark while sleeping in bed with my toddler. it’s imperfect, but it’s human. and it’s my honest attempt to make sense of the most profoundly life altering experience I had with @christopherlentzbledsoe and @rybledsoe .

who needs disclosure when you have gnosis? cc: @moods.codex

“There must be some kind of way out of here” Said the joker to the thief “There’s too much confusion I can’t get no relief” Businessmen, they drink my wine Plowmen dig my earth None will level on the line Nobody offered his word, “ hey, hey “No reason to get excited” The thief, he kindly spoke “There are many here among us Who feel that life is but a joke, but, uh But you and I, we’ve been through that And this is not our fate So let us stop talking falsely now The hour’s getting late, Hey, Hey All along the watchtower Princes kept the view While all the women came and went Barefoot servants too, well, uh Outside in the cold distance A wildcat did growl Two riders were approaching And the wind began to howl, hey All along the watchtower Got to be a way, got to be a way out here, hey All along the watchtower

this is why we created @moods.codex - ritual technology for your inner world.