“Quarantine” - How are you staying safe?
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When I received my positive test, I felt an overwhelming sense of guilt for my coworkers, their families, and others I may have potentially exposed. 30 minutes into my shift at work, I immediately went home, drove 20 minutes back to my apartment crying, and shut my front door for the next 10 days. A near empty fridge from lack of groceries, rent coming up, and no work or pay until I finished quarantine.
I experienced a range of symptoms: coughing, chills, fatigue, sore throat, headache, and body aches. Though most symptoms passed after day 5, the cough and fatigue have lingered. Most days I took several naps and was too tired to do much, even paint. I felt alone and scared of all the uncertainty, again.
When I received my negative test after 10 days, I felt relieved, yet cautious. The audio for this piece is a phone call from the Illinois Department of Public Health. The painting itself was completed July 2020 as the initial quarantine stretched long, endless, and jobless. Now in 2021, fresh out of quarantine, I am hopeful, yet wary for 2022.
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"Nostalgia" - What makes you nostalgic?
Very often, I am awake at 4am, can't sleep. Too late to try to fall asleep. Too late to get up and start my day. Feeling lonely because many of the people I know are asleep or at work. Very often, I'll stay awake, staring at my ceiling, staring at my walls while I laugh, cry, and cringe to myself as I walk down memory lane. So if you're ever awake in the middle of the night, come cry with me :) The room in the painting is a romanticized, make-overed, cuteness intensified version of my actual room in my old apartment where I painted this piece, my first apartment in Chicagoland. The reality of my room looked much more bleak.
Feeling nostalgic, I always remember lazy Sunday mornings: a couple of cumulus clouds cute and puffy, filtered sunshine dampened by shady leaves and sheer lace curtains, the window slightly open for a secret breeze, sounds of baby birds and baby children, doves cooing. What's your perfect lazy chill Sunday morning?
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“Consume” - What consumes you?
The past. My traumas. Those I’ve hurt. I carry my past with me, like living with a ghost that pays unexpected visits, leaving me shaken, gasping for breath. But it is not only my past that haunts me, it is that I am a ghost that haunts the past of someone else, many others. Maybe it’s time I apologize.
I sketched out this painting almost 3 years ago, but never painted it, afraid I would mess it up somehow, like I always do. Maybe it’s time I apologize. Maybe it’s time I moved forward.
@projectile_vomiting is an amazing audio engineer, lighting designer, and vocalist. The collaboration with his beats for this piece really enhanced the story of the painting!
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"Happiness" - What brings you pure happiness?
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It was a Tuesday on the first heavy snowfall of Chicago in 2018 when I met him.
9 months later in Iowa, we said goodbye.
I didn’t know it would be a goodbye. I was adamant that Chicago lacked what I sought, and that eventually moving to Atlanta would make me happy. He wasn’t my happiness, he was one of many happy moments and experiences.
I finished painting this piece after I came back from a spontaneous trip to Atlanta, feeling as if I was making a major decision on my state of happiness. My experience with him made me more daring, more confident, and more open minded. Because of him, I learned that happiness resides within me, and will follow wherever go.
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"Vulnerable, Together" --- During these moments of contemplation, I feel very alone. Suddenly my motivation to get up each morning has dropped, my panic attacks are bi-weekly visitors, and tears are my source of skin hydration. "Vulnerable, Together" is a very personal voice message that inhales the introspective frustration of the struggle of living up to your own self-expectations and the toughness society requires of us. @splubble is an amazing voice-over actor, writer, and artist who wrote and voiced this sound piece. Be sure to also check them out as Frankie on @handlestream ! ---
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2019 has probably been the best year of my life so far. I earned my master's degree, sought out mental health treatment and admitted myself into a treatment facility, made friends whom I genuinely love and call family, and am constantly learning and advancing my career. I drove 12hrs south to Atlanta, my first time leaving the midwest. I flew to LA, my first plane ride. 2019 has been a lot of learning who I am, who I want to be, learning my boundaries, taking risks and facing challenges, understanding patience, and learning to try to love myself. .
And now...I'm floating along, like these jellies. Happily floating from one adventure to the next. Happy. That's a new concept for me. I kinda like it. .
I wouldn't have made it this far without the help of others. The song that accompanies this painting is a collaboration with @dmac.psd , a good friend in LA, who provided the chill guitar vibes. He is an amazing sound designer, guitar groover, and overall kind human. Go give him a follow and listen with 🎧 for a surprise!
I had an AMAZING time in LA shadowing a sound editor at Warner back in March. It was my first time on a plane, first time west, and first time seeing the ocean! This painting, based off the @starbucks logo, is dedicated to the wonderful people I met along the way who showed me kindness and made that experience one I'll never forget. Thanks to @jaypriyadarshi , @shiraprincessofpower79 , @drenewhlywd , @motherearthcrafts , @lamarbabi , @mcinerney.declan , @private_artwork , @zoyoursmilez , John and anyone else I met!
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A person I care deeply about once told me to grab a paintbrush instead of scissors, even if it was a raging mess of violent blotches. This is the result. And if you want, listen to the sound piece with headphones.
I am absolutely terrified to post this...but I'm also really damn proud. The topic of this painting is something I have struggled with since I was 12. I feel like I can stop lying to myself, telling myself that I'm okay and that I can handle it on my own. It's okay to let someone know, it's okay to let people in, it's okay to want to feel okay.
And damn do I want to feel okay, to be okay. I finally started an intensive treatment program this week and will hopefully come out with a better understanding of myself. I'm scared. I'm scared to let go of something so dear to me, but is also immensely toxic. I'm scared, but I'm ready.
Whatever you all are struggling with out there, even if we're strangers, know that I care about you and so do many other people. And if you ever need to talk, rant, spew, or even to talk about the weather, I'm here for you.
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Peace. Courage. Smiles.
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Thank you @iantheklin for being the subject for this next painting and sound piece. He is an amazing friend and a huge inspiration for me to keep chasing my dreams, pursuing my passions, and staying positive. Grateful to have him in my life.
Listen with headphones! I create short sound pieces that accompany every painting I do. DM me if you want to hear sound pieces for any other of my paintings ~ All sounds except the iphone noises where created and recorded by me as well. Credit to @iantheklin for his mad piano skills in this piece.
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When I paint, it's usually coming out of a rough place. And now that I'm above the water, I feel grateful to have met such wonderful and supportive people to help me through. I also recently met a person who quickly became a great friend.
Thanks to everyone out there for just being amazing <3
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Inspiration from @princeofsnails
She's going to the UK. I'm in Chicago. The stars are in the streets, and not in the sky. Missing Morris and the familiar eyes.
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