the internet™ takes chicago (and milwaukee) ♡
i’ve known these folks for more years than how old we were when we met - which is pretty spectacular when you really think about it. here’s to year 14 of our annual secret santa 🫶
“it was the light in things that made them last” - david berman
i remember the very first time i met andy. more importantly, i remember the first couple of times we hung out. him bringing me to embassy tavern after a shift at colorado sake co - when i was convinced he hated me - though that was never the case, i just wanted to be his friend so badly that i was insecure. he was the first real best friend i ever made in colorado - at a time when i was lonely and scared of what the future held and doubting my choice to move to denver at all. he held my hand and watched almost famous with me when i was heartbroken, he cooked dinner and harmonized phoebe bridgers songs with me when we were drunk and vulnerable, and most of all he brought this unwavering and ineffable positivity into my life that kept me afloat. afloat enough to ground myself into my new life here. and i am so fucking grateful for that. for him.
i was on the phone with my dad not too long ago - gushing about how i’ve never felt so sure about my people and the choices that lead me to where i’m at currently in my life. i think i have andy to thank for all of that. for guiding me here and loving me unconditionally - even when i was being an irrational crazy bitch (which was more often than you’d think lol). i’ve never really had someone so close to my heart leave like this. i am grateful to have known him. i am grateful to have loved him while he was earth bound. and i will never ever make a pot of pozole that isn’t his verde recipe.
he is light everlasting.
30 trips around the sun - each one a little more transcendent than the last. cheers to being fortunate enough to have lived a life thus far full of friendship and love and confusion and pain and dizzying adventure. i often am perplexed that this is my life. feeling very lucky (and hot!) entering my 30th year. grateful for everyone in my orbit. thank you thank you thank you💥🫶🌱
