It feels good to open up about fears and feelings.
To complain and to exchange experiences.
But sometimes conversation is not enough. Sometimes you feel like you’re not enough. Although you pour everything into this one specific project.
For me that’s photography. Selfportraits in particular. It’s more than putting up a tripod and humiliating yourself in public.
You connect with elements, your dreams, your environment and social others.
You don’t always look pretty.
You look surreal inside a tiny square of reality. Magic doesn’t always happen but when it does one can be proud of their framing.
What happens next?
Do I travel, freeze, sweat, fight with the winds and mosquitos just for myself?
Do I want to hide my creations from the world?
Or do I have a deep desire to share.
„Make art for yourself“ is easy to say when you’ve never experienced the thrill of validation. Once you took a zip of this delicious cocktail containing all the chemicals that make you seen- smaller portions will hit differently. They mess with your head.
Right now- it feels like a (not so) mysterious force known as „the algorithm“ has taken over my stirring wheel. This outlet is like an unreliable partner.
Like a game that changes the rules right after you won.
I want my art to be independent.
My photos don’t need a viral song.
No hook.
No text overlay.
And I still add those things, in hope to finally meet all the requirements of a successful post.
But I’m tiered of gambling.
Therefore I am taking a break till June. where I will reflect and continue making art.
And when I come back, I will tell you all about it 🤍
PS: My analogy of an art gallery that is open 356 days a year is still valid. Sometimes the tickets are sold out, sometimes very few visitors stop by.
For now the sign at the door says: temporarily closed.
Did you know that Enya had many beautiful songs?
Did you know you don’t always have to go for Caribbean Blue.
There might be also Sakura Pink (at your neighbourhood).
Did you know the Magnolia bloomed before the bees even discovered the world?
She is the «Great Mother» of flowers, a living treasure of grace and strength. In the old Chinese legends, it is said she carries the very essence of moonlight within her petals.
And this week those precious trees had to fight against cold, winds. I’m so happy I managed to capture the early bloom, though the the petals do not look everlasting 😂
Needle Felting - how I fell in love with wool 🤍
It all started in 2023, when I was in desperate need of a Christmas present.
And to be more specific, for Lars’ Mum.
At that time I had no idea what she liked, but I knew she loved her cats, and so I decided on recreating them as ornaments.
I had no idea what I was doing and most tutorials didn’t help, because one of them was a Siberian, long haired black beauty and the other one was missing an eye.
It took me almost 3 weeks to create something that was worth being a present (don’t we all love these diy gifts?😅)
After running out of patience I would only felt once a year. Always around Christmas, because everyone loved my little animals!
My personal favourite was a cockroach.
When I had to stay home for 6 weeks with a cast I was thinking about ways to give my creativity more room.
I’ve noticed that I watched lots of tutorials on how others create but I ended up never creating.
So if you’re reading this and you have this one impossible idea, just do it. Failure is experience and experience makes us better.
I feel like there is a blue hour and there is a dark blue hour.
The cloudier the harsher the transition between day and night.
@viktorianworld and I were caught in between time and almost forgot that both of us have health issues🥹
I’ve been also thinking about posting less, because life is back in its full glory and all I want is peace and quiet.
#darkphotograpy #princesscore #castle #romance
More Moorecore!
I haven’t been out much and it became quite practical to just stay in for my projects.
I’m about to change this today and can’t wait to spend the next 3 days away from the city with good company and whatever weather conditions we will encounter.
Weather forecast says snow 🙈
This past week I bought all kinds of potted spring flowers.
I don’t have a garden or balcony, but wanted to add some nature into my self portraits.
See the behind the scenes for almost all images.
Where‘s a will there’s a way 🤍
Each time I put together my mini vlogs I get so frustrated about several technical issues 🥲
Considering the mess I've made throughout my diy session, it's no wonder the editing turned out equally messy 😅
Paper Crocus
This shooting took way too much time, so my caption will be short!
Will post a tutorial on my paperflowes and hopefully be back in my usual rythm.
Still arranging (and postponing) the aftermath of moving.
So all is left to say: enjoy this series! For it took me the whole day to finish 😅
This is about: Self acceptance, photography and morning hues with @eden_art_dresses
I’ve recently got asked: Why do you like yourself?
There are many possible and quite philosophical answers to this, but the most plain one is: because I take self portraits.
And most importantly: because it is not pitch perfect beauty I’m after.
It’s a mood, a feeling, an expression of my inner self.
I’d be lying if I’d say that I find myself attractive WITHOUT EXCEPTION. And yes, of course I do want to match a certain aesthetic- but on my way of achieving this; I am confronted with myself in every possible way.
Each time I pick up my camera I know that I have to reflect on myself, accept my body, my face, my hair, my gestures. Even my wiry eyebrows 😅
All of the above could always be improved, but in that very moment I have to accept myself. And with it comes self acceptance.
Why did I remembered this question today?
Because when I frolicked around in this beautiful gown it made me happy to feel free. The light touch of the fabric and the long skirt kept on promising: today is your day🤍
And what a morning it was! Crescent moon, flying ducks, sunrise and fog included!
I’d love for you to visit @eden_art_dresses page, because I love her concept and she is such a sweet small business owner 🤍
She definitely brought fresh wind into my wardrobe!
