#EverydaySomething I was watching clips of battles recently and I remembered that many of the top class people practice with their crew, painters and fighters learn from particular schools, musicians at clubs and bars etc. that’s why certain bands are so sharp, they practically lived together for their development years, constantly interacting with the medium and a wide variety of practitioners, professionals and peers. That is what a church body should consist of as well. People who practice together, pray, reason, serve, minister, live and play in community. That’s how serious talent and skill gets developed. Being around people who are on fire for the same thing even if the approach or focus is different. Second thing is, you’ve gotta make the determination in yourself that you want to get good at this. You want to be close to God? You want to do great exploits? Good field work? Lol get around people who are on fire and challenge one another to show up consistently and push yourselves. On that note, reach out if that’s you. I want to get connected myself and help connect you.
#EverydaySomething this a long boy so I’ll post it to YouTube later as well. But relevant. Today I had a day where I kinda forgot who I was for a second, because I took my eyes off God. And I went back thru old videos I’ve got a bunch of things I never posted for whatever reason. This video is almost a year old and just got lost under the waves of other things I was doing. I can’t afford to do that to myself anymore. Times are too tight and I am too fragile. The things we don’t release build up create blocks or leaks. No more of that from me please. I want to live freely.
#EverydaySomething so I realized: art is translating the message to canvas or song or whatever medium. Business is getting the art into as many hands as possible. If I make art but never share it, i’m like that servant who was given a talent and instead of taking it to market I buried it. I was not given these abilities to hoard them to myself, nor to build an empire unto myself, but to share what God has done in my life with anyone who will hear. Money comes and goes that’s not the purpose of my business regardless of how successful it may become. The purpose is to spread this message to as many as will receive it. I’m learning and praying into this new understanding of my responsibilities and that makes me very excited. Now the artist and business persona can clash when they get unbalanced, and there’s definitely a natural inclination towards one or the other. But when you realize they’re not in competition and cause them both to submit to God’s purposes, we begin to see and serve the whole picture, and walk in the fullness of the call. I’ll put this to the test from now.
#EverydaySomething I’ve working hard to get the physical copies of Gathering ready for print. I’m really excited about this because. There’s some changes from the digital version. I had to reformat it for the company I’m working with and some of the images changed because I had then created them using imprecise digital manipulations in procreate. In trying to recreate them new images and ideas developed, so I ended up adding pages like this one. I can’t wait to get these finished and printed, but I’m also excited to use these techniques for future works.
#EverydaySomething walking meditations. I’ve learned to love long walks. So much comes about in so many different ways. Anywho, this is your reminder to believe what Hid says about you above what even your own thoughts and feelings say, let alone someone else’s. Peace and Love family.
#EverydaySomething painting warm up. Sometimes I got thru old sketchbooks and try to salvage drawings I did care for at the time and this is one of those. Lots of lessons in the past three days, even today… keep walking
#EverydaySomething Going for long walks is extremely edifying when the weather permits. A lot of gratitude in my heart for the times of crushing and the relief when that pressure lifts. When I have no strength to rely on, then God becomes my strength. I have a deeper understanding of the verse now.
#EverydaySomething There is a plan in place and above that plan there is a God who I place my complete trust in (learning to at the very least). All I ask is that you read Gathering and share if it moves you. In the meantime I’m going to get physical copies printed and shipped as soon as I can. Thank you for your support!
#EverydaySomething humanbien dot com is live now! My book Gathering is available to read and download there for free, all 200+ pages. I encourage you to download it and read it on your computer or tablet and tell me what you think. It’s a kind of harrowing story but it’s extremely real. Anywho I love yall. Spread the word far and wide please! A new era has begun!
#EverydaySomething ready or not, here I come. I’ve been trying to take this ONE step for years now. It’s so interesting, the things that make me most nervous now is things I wasn’t even aware of when I was starting out. It’s a hateful paradox that the more we think we know, the less we’re willing to do. I think there is truth to the “inner child” ideas that people are chasing in that the word says you must have “child-like faith” to enter the kingdom. Not as foolish, but as bold and positive, creative and courageous. I can’t rationalize why I’ve felt stuck for so long (at this moment) but I can take my next step in faith. That’s all there is to it. May 1st, I will give you a big piece of my heart. I’m eager to see what happens after that.
#EverydaySomething my artbook Gathering is coming soon. It’s already done it’s just the last little bits of formatting and processing it needs to go thru and somehow it’s the most difficult aspect to finish. The responsibility weighs heavily on me, so I know it’s gonna make an impact, I just need to push thru and finish. I must.
#EverydaySomething I was moved to tears today because this image, and this song- Found Wings by humanBien tell entire chapters of my life story in miniature. Jesus delivered me from so many things that were done to me, that I did to myself, and that I did to others. I remember waking up from tormented sleep to draw this image. I was suicidal, I was cutting, I was drinking to excess frequently, and in my sleep I as being attacked my demons urging me to kill myself. I woke up and angrily poured out everything I was feeling on the page and this image appeared and I felt better. That was a turning point for me, in realizing that I can do more than draw a likeness with my artwork. This was also around the time I started actually praying to God and looking for answers. This song, I’ll have to do a separate post but really take account of the lyrics, it’s absolutely insane for me to listen to now with how much of my life and understanding is present in them…. God bless you reading this, whether you believe or not, He is real and He does love you, and I pray you’ll see it so clearly one day.
