30 days sober today 🥳
by far the biggest decision i’ve ever made. the payoff has already been massive. i didn’t think id ever be able to get completely sober, let alone want that.
i was struggling so much for years, even when i wasn’t drinking i was smoking 🍃 pretty much daily for 10+ years. my life stagnated as a result. i didn’t share this with many people but i started drinking again a year ago yesterday.
i thought after 3 years without a sip i could handle it, but after a few months it became clear i could not. the whole experiment came crashing down - i became severely depressed, anxious and lazy. i didn’t like who i saw in the mirror. sure, there were some fun times partying with friends. but a lot of my time was spent isolating on the couch. i got sadder and sadder. i put on a mask and pretended everything was fine. i couldn’t muster the courage to ask for help.
this downward trajectory came to a climax during a blackout. i stood on a ledge and contemplated… only talked down by a miraculous phone from my partner Kassie.
the shock, horror, shame and despair of the next morning shook me to my core. i desperately wanted to make a change. i was afraid, knowing i’d tried to on my own and failed. so i reached out to a friend who has been sober for some time and finally asked for help.
as soon as i received help and went all in on staying sober, my life made a complete 180 degree turn. my relationships started healing, i lost 20 pounds, had energy to get through the day, motivation came back, anxiety dwindled. i felt my feelings and experienced true JOY in my first week - crying tears of joy multiple times. i felt all the pain and grief id been running from, too. and it passed cathartically. i experienced clarity, serenity and inner contentment. i reconnected with God who never left my side.
in short, getting sober changed everything for the better.
i don’t write this to judge anyone for their drinking or smoking. im not anti substances in any way. but substances just didn’t work for me. and upon reflection, they never did.
i am so grateful i made this change and look forward to living the rest of my life sober, one day at a time. 🕊️
Last Friday was insane 🤯
We had such a blast.. it was a really a night for the history books. huge thanks to the homie @angrybaby for inviting us on his big night
Got to test out some new tunes as well.. (slides 1,3 & 4)
Big upsss to the SF crew y’all were amazing as always.
📹 @teddypolk
so grateful for 250 days sober & all the blessings in my life right now. one day at a time has led to so much compounding joy 🥲
healing feels amazing. it’s never too late to turn things around and start really living life.
TURBO (The Remixes) is out today!
We brought some of our favorite garage producers together to reimagine TURBO through their own lenses. We’re blown away by the range across all 6 tracks, each one as fresh as the next - it’s impossible for us to pick a favorite!
@sans_seraph__ smashed it on the visuals as always, giving each remix its own universe to live in.
Big love to everyone involved, go run this up 🤍
LUV GROOVE- Lockerz Remix
TURBO (The Remixes) out Wed 4/29
We’re hyped for you to hear
Animation by @sans_seraph__
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