outfit from a lil grammy party i attended last wk but took no photos there bc i was sweating in this coat and didn’t bring my digital camera and sort of wasn’t able to serve in the moment sooooo yeah <3 i am both an angel and a mess <3 xx
wake up babe Growing Pain is out rn!!!!! <3
i started this song in London on a very lovely day that I barely remember because i blacked out for about 8 hours while making this song. oops hehe
i knew i had to release this song this year because 2025 has been one large growing pain for me. i’ve had a lot of shifts in my life, going through a breakup, figuring out how to sustain being an artist off of a day job and living in LA, trying to find any amount of balance while pouring every second i have into becoming a better producer and performer. i’ve felt confused, and distorted but probably for the first time in my life not shrouded in fantasy. which has sucked btw. I adore using escapism. ugh.
this song represents each chapter of that all in one. from denial to having true desire to change, to feeling impatient about how long a growth cycle can be only to realize you learned nothing at all, to wanting all of your old ways to work to find out they dont exist anymore because you’re a new person but can’t see it at all.
this song is part of something a bit larger though i won’t say just yet. there are a lot of details in the lyrics that may come back to you later. a carousel of thought perhaps.
thank you to my collaborators @b.r.e.d.e@jonnyshorr for being on this insane journey with me. it means everything <3
as always thank you to my creative partner @ellekese . i couldn’t do any of this without u (which ur very aware of bc im needy af)
MOSTLY THANK YOU FOR LISTENING. I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH. JUST THE BEGINNING ♾️🪽⚔️
i only released 1 song in 2025 which was a remix of digital daydream so to feel reminded that so many of you found my other songs through discovering my sweet lil romantic robot version means literally everything to me!!!!!
i struggled so bad with anxiety this year and not living up to my own expectations i put on myself to make great music (something i’ll be working on 4ever i guess)…. but alas a baddie always rises so im in my comeback era rn. my computer files are stacked and screaming to leave and i think it may be time to let them all go <3
this is rly just the beginning 4 me & i will die on the hill of being your next favorite pop star so 2026 is gonna go fucking crazy!!!!!
but reallllly. thank you 4 listening. for giving me time in your headphones. for making videos. for the messages & dms and for the comments on what my music feels like to you.
this music is bigger than just the songs i pinky promise…..<3
p.s. NEW MUSIC FRIDAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!
love,
chitra (your local romantic robot)
