Alex: yo Ben, you got any tees I can buy?
Ben: Alex… of course (digs through bins). Here’s a Doctor Doom joint cause I know you and doom (RIP) have a thing. Also got a couple sick blanks and … check this one out- this crazy 90s misspell of the Chicago mayor- John Daley’s campaign to try and eliminate the rat problem in the city.
Alex: ok awesome, let me try them back at home- cool?
Ben: so cool!
A couple months go by…
Alex: yo Ben!
Ben: yo Alex!
Alex: I brought the Chicago tee back to you, just a little too small for me (the dude is built like a country boy) but the rest I’ll keep. Cool?
Ben: of course man! (Knowing that shirt will sell on EBay for coin).
A couple months go by…
Ben’s online checking out YouTube videos, whoa… the New “Bad Bad Not Good - midspiral” album. Lets check it out (click)
Ben watches the awesome video to the awesome song while the awesome drummer for the group named Alex is looking fresh and rocking a 90s Chicago rats misspell of John Daley’s name t-shirt…
Hmmm… doesn’t fit huh Alex?!?
It’s on EBay now- you’re welcome.
Ps. I love Alex for real, no misspell.
All vintage sales final.
Thank you.
Benjamin Florian.
@badbadnotgood
Story time on eBay. Plus important share at the end. Asking for support can be the hardest thing at times- let’s get our reps in NOW. Texting “SOS” is a simple and effective way of gathering your people to be there and to support you. You are worthy of it, it’s an honour to support you. Believe that.
Quick (not so quick for yall ADD/ADHD/HD whatever you label yourselves as… feel free to skip to minute 3) video about taking matters into MY own hands. YOU can do whatever you want with your hands but this morning this is what I did. Enjoy. Love yall. #Taking matters #getitdone #letsgo #life
Coming into realization that 90% of what I think is true, is not. So I felt inspired to share this idea. Challenge it if you will. I’m convinced that I do what needs to be done, say what needs to be said and make mistakes so that I get closer to understanding myself and life. I’ll never really get it, but I’m here and im doing a great job. You’re welcome.
I do clothes stuff and movement stuff and I’m good at it. I wanna work with more men because men need support and need to get out of their own way. Men, where you at? I wanna work with you. So do it, I dare you.
Not saying all of us but also saying all of us but also saying not all of us. I don’t know, are you hiding something? I do and I am and I also see a lot of the brothers hiding. What if we took risks and put a little more of who we are out there? What would happen… What would happen if we were honest about what we wanted to share, what we wanted others to pay attention to, focus on and reflect back to us? I’m posting this because I’d like to continue practicing not hiding, being honest about the attention I want from the world and the work I need to focus on so that I get what I want and need. AND- surprise, suprise- I also want to do more styling with men, help them with their bodies, their minds, they’re purpose and mission. Why- specifically because I know we need to hide LESS of our true vulnerable selves and that’s what the world needs from us. Finally I didn’t want to put a filter on what I look like right now, today, under this light and where I’m at in my world. So… You’re welcome and thank you.
INSTAGRAM POST 2024/2025
It is interesting isn’t it, the way we communicate and connect these days?
I don’t spend a lot of time on social media, decided to take a year and a half off… yet I still feel like I want to be a part of it. On some level I want to relate and be in relationship with this online world I create and co-create with others. On another I’m like - fuck this.
If I consider what the relationship is here, now in 2025, I see it mostly as a way to give. Considering I’ve had a few people mention they miss reading my posts, which brings a smile to my heart (thanks yall!) maybe It’s time to show up on here.
Give what though? To inspire/be inspired through accountability in sharing myself with the world maybe?! And absolutely yes to receiving, which is mostly what’s new and exciting in my life- reciprocation. What feeds others is also what feeds me, and vice versa.
I’ve had a lot of time offline since the middle of 2023. Working through the pressure of Heartbreak, financial struggles, family dynamics, feeling as though I was failing at life. “I can’t do anything right!”- I came closer than ever to the reality that ending it all would be the easy way out.
Fortunately, I’m here this time around to go through life and experience it. The lite weight and the shit that feels impossible to lift. I lift weights, I know what’s up and maybe that’s why it’s familiar territory when life crushes me. Reminding me to posture up and give it all I’ve got.
I know that giving that last big push, that final rep into the next day makes all the difference. It’s the difference between still being here and being someone’s memory. To push into tomorrow, I assure you- It’s fucking worth it.
Don’t give up, still a lot of breath left in those lungs. There are many people who wanna be close to that fresh air you’re breathing in/out into the world… right after you get out from under that heavy ass weight.
So to put some more pressure on you, ‘cause clearly you’re built for it- don’t you ever forget that you’re on the path to do your greatest work from here on out. Trust. I’m living proof, and yes I put the emphasis on LIVING.
To everyone who helped me breathe better.
