25 and alive!
Happy birthday to me. This year has been absolutely harrowing but hey atleast I’m cute and know how to keep my head high. Here’s to another year challenges that I’m going to crush
As a few of you know, I had both of my grandfathers pass away this year. These past few months have been particularly difficult for me as while I have lost so much I have also gained lots. I’ve never lost people close to me before, and I am quite lucky for having such long lived family.
Grief is quite difficult I miss my grandfathers day by day and I find that my existence is a reminder to my family, they find so much of them in me and that is quite bitter sweet. During this time I’ve tried to be there for my family especially my parents, though I am far from completely stable myself I think being a family is so important.
My family has grown as well, these funerals have brought me uncles i never knew, a new connection to a sister we’ve been trying to contact for 30 years. Aunts who could tell me stories of who my grandfathers were and what they did. Not to mention my grandmother on my father’s side who I spent 5 hours speaking to about life.
I’ve left words here which is something I typically keep to myself however I wanted to share so that I could just say what I needed too, not just to my grandfathers but myself, I’m testing my honesty.
Thank you to everyone who reached out to check in on me, I will always be greatful. Even to those whom I didn’t even know that well who had so much warmth for me, I appreciate you and wish you well. I’ve come to learn that the people who will be there for you will show up unexpectedly and expecting those who you thought would be there not being there hurts, but it tells you how to reevaluate. I am thankful to have such wonderful people in my life and to have family no matter how complicated.
One love to all.
Enjoy the photos
Some of my instax shot on 4x5 . I do miss my @lomography lomograpflock. It was one of my favorite ways to connect with people through photography and it was a lot of fun. I hope to have one again
Hope y’all be good we been good.
Some color experimentation I did in October with some friends
#portrait #colorphotography #experimentalphotography #blackphotography
Model: @morahnotes
