Well issa sumthin to do with the passing of my dad nehh,, on the 1st of August 2011 wen ii lost my dad ,,well ii was still a kid back then so ii didn't really feel the pain but ii think now I'm feeling the pain ii was suppose to feel like 8/9 years ago wabona nn like issa sumthin that's always being on my mind every time nn trust me it hurts nehh.. ..well growing up with my mum nn sister never got the chance to spend sum real time with my dad coz ii lost him wen ii was 8years so yeahh😔😔😔😔...it's sumthin that really broke me down,, well people like at school nn stuff know me as a quite nn shy boii ,,I'm not shy nn quite coz ii want to or ii chose to,,Nahh issa sumthin that really hurts coz growing up without my dad got me like not wanting people near me coz ii thought they wouldn't understand my story nn stuff,, ii believe that if ii got the opportunity to grow with him,,ii was gonna be a much better kid today,, nn they see me happy nn always laughing at school nn they think my life is perfect nn that but honestly ii kinda hate my life.. ..uu know having to wake up everyday nn thinking maybe I'll get to see my dad but not even seen him really hurts me alot😔💔🙇nn ii even tried committing suicide coz all ii wanted was to get the opportunity to send with my dad wabona,, ii kinda feel like my life is useless without my dad at times yazii,..,Maybe ii need help,, maybe go for sum counseling to be able to talk to sumone about the pain I'm going through but thing is ii don't feel like being too open towards sumone ii don't know nn besides I'm not ready aiii,, rather carry the pain along then talk to sum stranger about it so aiii I'll be fine,, at sum stage Life juss goes on so I'll find a way oneday nn I'll move on juss for him.. ... ...well ii don't feel like I'm neglected,, bullied,, used juss yet coz ii don't really like open up to everyone ii know wabona....
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