A lot of shit went down since i took this picture, nothing Crazy, Just life... tried to grow up, tried to take care of whatever i had to take care, tried to learn new things, tried to listen to other things, tried to listen carefully everybody else around me, probably so much that i got lost.
I know life tho, sometimes i forget, i Always had visions during my Life, ive seen magic, Little moments, wispers, frames and silent names, moments of real connection, still too big to completely get It.
I really felt sunshine burning my skin, a gentle breeze on my feet, i breathed so deeply that this Planet was feeling like a part of me, i could really talk with It, we know each other i know for sure.
For a long time i really walked that way, i knew my steps, every single step i was taking was the right step, i could see my path with Wide open eyes and a clean pure Heart.
Still didint really got there yet tho, i waited too long maybe,things has pulled me out of It... people, thoughts, busy Life... but that gentle breath Is still there, a sweet breeze in my stomach, a Little spark of light in my chest.
Sometimes, when i lay down, i can slowly feel all the heavy layers i hold on to just gettin off of me, one by one, all the blackness i carry on Just clears up, i find myself naked, only my smallest Essence left. An Orange, Yellow Energy, It heals me, i feel It running through me like an old friend, It shows me the way, It asks me for space and courage. Its all that i Always cared about, its what was living in my behalf, in all my best moments, i was just that flame going wild, loving.
Thats what i really am, dont Need nothing else at all.I forgot about It tho, i forgot the prayers, i forgot that sacred feeling, i forgot how It felt in my Heart.
Really Need to get deeper, drown in that thing again, reach the forest, see that little light, waterfalls rivers water flowing, its Never really been anywhere else, its Always been within.
I dont want to Hide It anymore, i want this to be a prayer, to find courage to be me, to find my own feet again, my own Heart, breath with my own breath, i want to be that flame again, i want to be my soul Forever.
I pray for death and rebirth.
11 months ago