CAN’T YOU SEE IM WALKIN’ ERE’??

guys! I know I publicly deleted instagram so this is a bit embarrassing but im coming on here briefly to be real af with you all !!
Yes I am doing the walk for nature and walking 200km in May (!!!) but it is a bit deeper than just that for me. Not to get too crazy on instagram but I feel like as we all can acknowledge instagram is very curated and I am actually not doing that well! I can put as many geese songs over photos of me smoking cigarettes but I couldn’t even fool myself anymore. I struggle a LOT with whats going on in the world and whats going on within myself. Am I doing enough? Can I spend time with myself? Is Trump going to push the big red button? How many hours have I been watching reels today??
I have struggled a lot with feeling like deep down I am a bad person. I worry I constantly have disappointed the people around me or that I’m never doing enough which usually spirals into me actually being a shitty person not doing enough !

Maybe destroying my legs by walking 200km listening to geese but not smoking a cigarette and spending more time with my friends will change me a bit? Im actually not sure. But I am going to try.

Our planet is being fucked by a few billionaires and I really want to do what I can which doesn’t feel like very much but if I can raise some money for our native wildlife I will !!
Please if you can - I know things are so fucked at the moment but even if you have $5 that would be super cool. I am trying to raise $500 to save our beautiful native wildlife!!! We have to!
The link is in my bio, my strava is too so please follow me on there so you can keep me in check!!
In solidarity,
sillybugguh
