Every time I visit Philly I can’t not shoot with the homie aka the talented @deerking.music .
Thanks for using your eyeballs to look at my art and cool friend.
Always feeling like a clown when I take self portraits ft Toad’s naked butt. Okay here’s me being vulnerable and making something kinda lazy because I hate self portraits since they’re so limiting and posting it on the internet. Trying to create how I used to create (diy lighting and extra dark) and find the style that makes me high on life again. Trying to share my art even if I think it’s bleh. Trying to not care. Trying to DO. Trying to explore more.
Been into clowns recently? Maybe it’s enjoying the idea of the mask granting you the comfortability to not conform to the box of what’s expected and “normal”. A shield for insecurities holding you back from being weird in front of people that aren’t your friends. A shield for the ego in hopes of eventually removing the mask and saying and doing what you would with it. Using humor to lighten how you really feel. Water it down until you drown in your own thoughts. Water it down until you implode and try to crawl out again to who you once weren’t afraid of being and creating.
Kk tata now. I swear I’m fine. Just creatively blocked in the photo realm and staring at chapters of photo ideas I’ve collected since 2016 and never execute. I then impulsively create something fast with little thought instead because I end up being my own subject and hate living on a tripod and hate being the subject.
Also shoutout to @curiousnatureshop for the skull and the magnifying glass that came from an owl pellet dissection kit (:
Happy Valentine’s Day or something 🖤
Shoutout to my cool, hot best friend for being down to be my model for over a decade and being one of my fav humans to blend creative brains and ideas with.
Here’s the digital version of my lil Chaos piece for your internet eyes to view. Thank you to all the cuties for the kind words and support and love 💕 feels really good to create for my own pleasure again and feels a little less scary to show the world the things I like to do.