Shots 📸

It’s been exactly one year today since my world was turned upside down. Grief is such a powerful force. They say time heals all wounds but I think that’s one of the biggest misconceptions. If anything, the pain gets worse as time passes because it’s been that much longer since I last saw you and hugged you tight. Loosing you was the hardest loss I’ve experienced. I spent these last 12 months trying to pick myself back up and trying to learn how get back to some sort of normalcy. Unfortunately, I’ve come to the realization that my life will never be what it was before you passed and I need to learn how to live in this new reality without you in it. I learned life grows around grief and I need to continue to accept this new version of myself … the version without you. Although the pain is beyond tolerable at times , I wouldn’t change a thing. if this hurt is the cost of a transaction for being on the receiving end of a mighty love... then I have paid it with enormous gratitude… thank you for making this world a better place for everyone you ever met. Thank you for touching the lives of many. Thank you for being my soulmate in this lifetime. I love you always and forever little bro 💕 I promise to tell your stories and share your legacy 💔🕊️ 9/25/94 - 2/19/23

They say grief is the price of love & even though I’ll live the rest of my life absolutely broken inside I wouldn’t change it because I can truly say I experienced what it means to truly love and be loved by someone. I can’t believe you would have been 29 today. You were the most beautiful person I’ve ever known. Today is extra hard as your birthday was my favorite time of the year! I always started planning in July and saving up to give you some crazy birthday experience and trip. It’s been said the good die young and I never fully understood that until I lost you 7 months ago. It pains me to write about you instead of being able to hug you tight. I miss your hugs. I miss your laugh. I miss how you’d know how I’m feeling by just looking at me. I miss you. You touched countless lives with your short time on this earth. You were wise and humble. You had the soul of an Angel. You were unlike the influences you were raised around. You made a decision at a young age to be selfless. You were a noble young man. You carried the brightest light even on your darkest days. You were the most talented person in every thing you did. You were so smart … smart beyond your own comprehension. You made everyone around you a better person… you made me a better person. I wouldn’t be here today without you. You saved me. I wish I could have saved you. I’ll never be the same now you’re gone and I’ll walk around forever with a huge part of me missing. Thank you for being my rock, my little brother and my soulmate in this life. People can live an entire lifetime without ever experiencing the once in a lifetime bond we had and I’m so grateful to have had that connection with you. I feel you with me always and I know you’re in heaven looking down 💕 you’ll forever be my little munchkin happy 29th to my guardian Angel. I love you forever and always

The last 30 days has been a nightmare I’ve been praying to wake up from… everything I am today is because of you… down to this photography page .. you were my munchkin, my little brother and truly my soulmate thank you for being my biggest fan and supporter… you loved me with no conditions and you made me a better person. You gave me the confidence I never had… I spent nearly every day with you for 14 years… a huge part of myself died with you and I’ll never be the same. I love you so much and I promise I’ll tell your story 💕 thank you for being the best part of me thank you for being my person 🕊💔 now I have a guardian Angel I feel you with me everyday Ily

This isn’t my usual type of post, but with it being Mother’s Day, I couldn’t let it pass without sharing these sweet moments from the announcement shoot I did for my best friend , my sister in everything but blood. Seeing you on this journey to motherhood is something so special, and I consistently find myself almost crying just thinking about it. I’m so proud of you, and I already know you’re going to be an incredible mommy! Thank you for letting me be part of this moment, for trusting me to capture it, and for letting me be apart of this journey. Happy Mother’s Day to the beautiful mommy to be one of the most loving, loyal, and pure hearted people I’ve ever known. I love you so much, and I can’t wait to be an auntie and spoil this baby rotten! 😂😂 I love you both @jordanmyhairgirl @johnnyrohan 💕💕

“Deep in the Hollywood Hills Designer down to the heels You know that nothing is real? They’re waiting for me to die to say how great I was when I was alive…” - Aaryan Shah… 📍 the streets… I’m ngl it was nice to do a switch up from shooting performances and get creative with those editorial vibes…. Don’t get me wrong I looooove me some live shows… but I also love taking my time setting up shots/playing with lighting and just experimenting with different ideas… #ineedtofinishtheseeditsthoooo

“the way that they think that they on my level, bacteria, they make me sick So first and foremost, bitch, you can’t compare to this” - Monsters Inc 📍 Hollywood palladium… had the pleasure of shooting @theslumpgod 11th dimension tour stop in Hollywood last week. The show went crazy 🔥🔥

“The cost of my vanity I can’t afford to pay I gave up my sanity For nothing in exchange There’s nowhere to run the train never comes I’m sick of this place I’m sick of LA” - Half remembered dream … 📍The Belasco … It’s been so long since I’ve posted … here’s some of my shots of @jadenhossler & @lolo from the show last week … shot for @pit.crew.media

“No fly zone, please stay the fuck out my airspace Bitches say things behind backs that they wouldn't dare say Know it's on sight when I see you, I'm workin' at Squarespace Yeah, top of the mornin', I know that you thought I was dormant I'm mindin' my business as God is my witness No weapon gon' prosper that's formin' against me… If you betray me, you dead to me I disrespect you respectfully” J Cole… 📍LA This post is out of my normal content but I’ve always used my platform as a form of a personal yet not so personal journal and a way of later self reflection. The last year has been one of the more challenging experiences of my life and I’ve faced many obstacles throughout the years, but this one hit different. Some reading may already know what I’m referring to but in short since June of 2021 til now I’ve been fighting and dealing with a hidden illness. This situation has drained me physically and mentally. But as all things in life go “this too shall pass…” and even though I’m not back to optimal health , I am getting closer to that every day. With that being said , since February of this year I officially closed my books and stopped all my creative projects but now I feel at a point I need to continue with my life. My books are officially OPEN but from here on out I will ONLY take on projects I’m 200% excited to be apart of. Life forces us to compromise but one thing I will not do is compromise my art. I do not take on 200-400$ shoots, if you’re looking for a discount or to bargain then I’m certain I’m not the visual artist for you. I only work with budgets. I don’t negotiate my rates. I learned very early on people don’t buy what they can afford but rather buy what they value….. I have 3 projects I’m doing this month & im so hyped to be apart of them! I’m also excited to have a ton of new content to share ! To all the people who have supported my work over the years I appreciate you! & my clients who have been so understanding and helpful I deep down from the bottom of my heart appreciate you and can’t wait to start creating again 💕 (📸: @chakarra … also one of the sickest visual artist I know! If you need a dope video or visuals hit him 🔥)

“I'm fresh to death I'm in my grave laughing, Aw I gotta stop namedroppin bitches And giving y'all clout- Actually fuck that These bitches hoes and I love that I'd be the bigger person But I'm just not above that I'm just so sick of the Cappin These bitches fragile Like motherfucking glass in a cabinet, Especially **** … “ - Tokyos revenge 📍 Los globos… It’s so wild to me how quickly things in life can take a turn, I’ve paused so many of my projects for The last several months due to my health and at this point I’m eagerly waiting for this challenging time in my life to be over but with all negative things come positive after effects & I will say this time brought so many things into perspective. Now I can go into this next amazing chapter of life and leave certain things/people/thought processes etc behind. If you’ve tried to book with me or you’re a current client I appreciate you 🙏 and once I’m back at 100% im hyped to start creating again 💕 #rebuilding

“Beat around the bush, I keep a mop for a misfit Ay, doin' soul searchin' with the demons Murder in July, my mama made me mind my business I don't fuck with my ex on Instagram Cancelled out my life if you fishin' for attention Always looking out for the fake Add a stranger to my list, unfamiliar faces” - Moshpit … 📍BH …. I feel like this is just my signature location 😂 … Oooh I’m hyped for hard summer this month… I could be on my deathbed and still gather up enough will power and energy to shoot it 🤷🏻‍♀️😂 #mindthebusinessthatpaysyou

“Tryna keep the balance, I'm stayin' strong (Ooh) Stop playin' with me 'fore I turn you to a song (Yeah) Ayy, bitch I'm attractive (Ah) Can't fuck with you no more, I'm fastin', eugh (Ooh) Bitch I'm attractive (Ah, ah, ah, ah) Can't fuck with you no more, I'm fastin',“ - Rich spirit… 📍 Noho … ah this was the first photo I ever shot on film… I remember gaining a whole new appreciation of my art after this day… something about having minimal control over the end result … as much as I love tour /music shoots … nothing will take hold Of my creativity like a 1 on 1 does… #theexperienceiguess

“I should've known that you were bad news Stuck to my body like a tattoo From the beginning you knew I couldn't have you You just wanted my soul cause you're the Devil Yeah, let you try me, swear that you’re bad news, yeah Diamond choker help ya keep your cool “ -Tokyos revenge 📍 Belasco theater … isn’t it funny the people you love in this life the most are the ones to be your biggest enemies? Except for me those people aren’t my enemies… it’s between you & God how you treat people that isn’t any of my concern. I claim to be a mean one and done type of person, but that couldn’t be further from the truth…. I give people way more chances than they’ll ever deserve and I end up in a state of regretting the decisions my heart makes over what my mind knows is right… luckily I no longer allow these things to bother me too much time has passed … but I’d be lying if I said I don’t understand why… #ihopethatpendantwasworthitg