For those of you who actually read my entire last post, I love you ♥️ here is me forgetting I have arms a bunch!
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“It wears her out”
Yes it really does, all of it. We can all agree that the consistent downward spiral of the world has left us all emotionally drained. I’m not going to lie, I thought dance would get me through this. It hasn’t. This year’s events forced me to cope with change without escapism. Which I’m honestly grateful for among many other things I learned during this fucked up time. I love dance but I realized that you can’t fix everything with movement. I found that there were too many emotions surfacing to simply dance them away. So I decided to try sorting my feelings head on. It was painful and something I’m still not comfortable with. Some days I was so clouded with a multitude of emotions due to having no control of my life, frustration with the lack of empathy in America, and fear for myself/loved ones. At the time I couldn’t handle this weight. I couldn’t even get myself to dance. I was hard on myself about that. But I learned that these times for me called for rebuilding relationships, family, and slowing down. It has taken me up until now to accept my few tiny steps away from my passion. But it has brought me clarity, more inspiration, and another healthy way of coping with reality. So if any of you feel shitty about where you’re at with yourself dance wise, you’re not alone. I’m certain that things will be okay and we will be back to feeling fierce AF. (I do not own the rights to this music)
I haven’t moved in two weeks because of life and tbh I feel very out of my body. But here is me trying to get back into it.
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Doing what I can in this small space and a clouded mind from all that is happening around me. Grateful to find peace and a break from worry through movement. It was hard to focus and I don’t think anything in this clip is interesting, but I’m still posting because that is part of the challenge for me: accepting where I am right now and trying my best not to judge myself too harshly.
Day 4:
I am human, life gets busy, and this journey is going to take some adjusting to find time in my schedule to research more frequently. I’m in this for the long haul, so I’m not going to be too hard on myself. Here is some movement with the idea of initiating from the fingers, hands, and feet. P.s. it was 104 degrees in my garage and you can tell on my face
This is a clip from yesterday because teaching Pilates in the am got in the way of improving before it got way too hot to dance outside or in my garage.
I’m down for the artistic growth, but not down for a heat stroke.
*if any of my few followers want to drop some improv task ideas in the comments or my dms that’d be sexy. Ty <3
