It’s been 40 days since my mama passed away. I can’t tell you exactly how I feel, because I still don’t know how I feel. Losing a parent is one of the hardest things I have ever dealt with. The way she left us was not peaceful being diagnosed with pancreatic cancer; it was painful every day, hoping she would get better, telling everyone, especially her that she was going to get better.
“Don’t be negative, don’t be pessimistic, don’t give up.”
It wasn’t in my hands or hers. It’s life, and she had a very wonderful life. She was the strongest person I know. I was with her every step of the way throughout all her medical journeys, and I wouldn’t have changed that for anything . She will always be with me because she raised me; she knew me longer than anyone else. And I love her, and in any happy, hard, exciting, or difficult moment I have in the future, she will always be with me. I can be smiling and going on with my life, but it isn’t like I don’t think about her every moment of the day. And I don’t want to stop. Because she is my mama, and I will always love her. I only hope I can be as strong as she was. Al-fatihah 💕
2025 gave me adventures, family time , happiness , love , travel , sadness, but most importantly it gave me so much life! Thankful for all my loved ones shared all these memories with me💕
