Birthday Suit 📸
@blackpixelproductions
I need to say this… first, I was instructed not to post this photo. “It’s too much” “maybe post it to your stories so it disappears” “what if someone shares it and the wrong person sees it?” I understand their concerns, truly.
But I was doing that dance again. You know the one… self edits. Growing up Pentecostal I’m far too familiar with the double life.
Not anymore.
For years I was careful to post the “right” things. I would often preach to my audiences, “you never know who is watching.” Well calculated messages got me into the right rooms, put me on national stages, and made sure I stayed in good graces with my family, community, and paying clients.
But I was falling apart.
I’m my first therapy session, I stayed silent for the first 20 minutes until finally the therapist leaned in and said “Shaun, it’s okay… not everyone is interested in being seen.” I was shook.
This divide in self ultimately led to my breakdown. Jim Carrey one famously said “depression is your body saying f*ck you, I don’t want to play this character anymore.” Well, I didn’t either.
I dropped my agency and moved from my dream city to place far, far away to start over. There I gained insight, a new community, and gathered the pieces of myself that were scattered across the categories of love, religion, profession, and art.
Then OMG, I heard a message, clear as day… “Shaun, you CAN do ALL things.” (As long as I tell the truth).
In every moment I would ask myself “what’s the truest thing I can say right now…. even if it scares me?”
I started posting more of myself. This offended some, but empowered many others. I lost clients and many gigs, but gained a new following—and even began booking dream jobs aligned with the artist I truly am.
Today I sit on my throne of honestly, ready to take on challenges that only bold, open and honest Shaun can handle.
Thank you for everyone who encouraged me to show myself, to tell the truth, to be more audacious in business, bold in art, and more vulnerable in every interaction.
I’m ready to be seen.
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